fresh8 Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 It's been nearly 3 months on. My studies are going well with exams around the block but looks likely I will be 6 months closer to graduating from Law School. I just got a contract extension at the firm I am working at. My family is doing well and I have made so many new friends in the past 2 months at work and also hung out with all the friends I neglected whilst I was dating my ex.... ... but somehow I still feel empty inside. I don't feel like I can be the happiest I can be. I still miss my ex and it really annoys me that I do. Last week, I had a dream about us and how I got in contact with her again only to which she told me she had a boyfriend. I woke up at 4am in the morning, crying. That's just embarrassing! But I missed her for a few days after that. Sometimes I feel like, if I got another shot with her - maybe the feelings would be back. However, the rational part of me has already told myself that we would never be able to be back together because of the reasons she broke it off in the first place (her family/culture). I don't know if I could ever be friends with her (like she had suggested at the time) because it would hurt too much to see her with someone else. Ah... I just wanted to vent. It's been a while since I've come on here! I just find it stupid how I can't be happy even though everything is going great for me. Link to post Share on other sites
Renard99 Posted June 6, 2011 Share Posted June 6, 2011 (edited) Hang in there mate! I think we have all felt / still feel this so we're right there with you. I'm 5 months since the breakup and I still feel empty inside just like you. I've accepted she's not coming back, I've been out to see friends that I also neglected whilst dating, I've organised countless social events, I've ploughed energy into a hobby that I never had much time for and I've been to places and events that I never went to knowing my ex wouldn't have liked them, yet, I still feel numb and hollow. It's like my body is doing these things and my brain is just along for the ride. We'll both get there eventually, and, as I'm sure people who are further along on the path of healing will testify, things will slowly get better. We just have to keep our lives on the path to happiness, and one day, hopefully soon, we'll find it. Edited June 6, 2011 by Renard99 Link to post Share on other sites
Author fresh8 Posted June 7, 2011 Author Share Posted June 7, 2011 Thanks for the reply Renard. I've been on a few dates as well as hooked up because I thought it was the easiest way to get her off my mind but all it's done to me is made it worse! Such terrible thinking on my part. Maybe I'm just too anxious about it all. I just wish I could totally detach myself from all of this overnight. Link to post Share on other sites
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