I don't feel right

[saucytatertot69]

It's been 9 months since I was dumped. I feel a lot better than I did in the beginning stages after being dumped. But today, I don't feel right. Very low energy, I felt like I wanted to sleep the whole day away. I don't understand why I feel this way. I miss her so much. I miss her family. I miss the way things used to be. I do my best in everything I do. I sometimes wonder when will I stop being the punching bag of my own heartbreak. I feel like I should be healed by now. I keep reminiscing about the moments we shared that I hold dearly in my heart.

[Nohbody]

I think that to some extent the memory is going to be powerful until you find someone to make new memories with. Not advocating looking for a new steady, but keep in mind that the emotions you felt then were powerful, and created powerful memories. You have done fantastically, keep up the good work, and you will find someone who appreciates you.

[saucytatertot69]

Thank you, You are right. The thing is I'm not the casual dater type. I like to meet people when I meet them. After she dumped me, she found someone new quickly. I felt so forgotten and I felt like I meant nothing to her. I guess that kick while I was down really did some damage. Her and the person she replaced me with dated for 4 or 5 months, broke up, and got back together in April. I'm pretty sure they are still dating. The guy she replaced me with is an *******. Uses girls left and right. When he dumped my ex, he went after another girl. When things didn't work out with the girl, he went back to my ex and she took him back. She took him back and because she did I feel like he must be a better person in all aspect compared to me. It just isn't fair. Why am I still pinning for my first "in love" girl? I don't understand why I am or why I still care because more than likely she doesn't care or love me anymore.