Nita10 Posted June 12, 2011 Share Posted June 12, 2011 Hello everyone I was considering posting a thread last week saying how I thought I was over my ex.. little did I know lol I walked into some coffee shop today to grab something to eat and the very first thing I see when I go in is my ex! His eyes were wide open with a semi-smile on his face. I look at the girl with him (someone I met once before, she seems nice lol I remember seeing a picture a mutual friend posted on fb of her setting next to my ex during his bday while he was wearing a shirt I bought him, was a bit annoyed at that). I had a quick look at the food there but felt like I lost my appetite so I left. I was panicking, felt like some strong electric current was passing through my body. Called a friend, had a rant and asked for permission to go back and just give him some look (very childish I know). So I went back 15min later, they were there, she was looking away, he was staring at me, looked at him from head to toe very quick lol (actually felt good!) grabbed a sandwich and left to pay. By the time I paid they were gone. I feel like they like eachother which annoys me (even though non of my business). Seemed like she was a bit embarrased to be seen by me sitting with my ex. I've been NC for about 2 months now. Was NC for 2 months a few months ago and then broke it for the sake of not making it awkward for our friends (we're on the same course). But then realised it wasn't a great idea. I don't think I love him now (since I think he's not the person I loved anymore so why even bother). But I think I'm very annoyed because I feel like I was used by him. When I couldn't make him happy I was just disposed. Now he's never short of female company. Unfortunately, he's a bit of an amazing guy lol.. very smart.. very intellectual.. people almost worship him. I can't help it but feel at times that I wasn't good enough. I think I stopped improving myself for sometime since I was struggling with med school and being very far away from home. Can't help it but think I couldn't satisfy his intellectual needs while other girls he's always with do. Feeling inadequate hurts. I think I've wasted a lot of time being down because of him. I don't want today to take me backwards. I'm in one of the toughest med schools in the country, very independent as I have been living away from my home country and family for a few yrs, and most people would agree that I'm quite good-looking. Yet, I don't seem to be able to move on. Exams are coming up in a month's time. Can't afford to screw things up and lose it all. I plan to do an evening course in a few months time for at least a yr. Continue going to gym. And focus on med school. I really want to start being the person I've always wanted to be. I want him to look at me and regret walking away. Sorry for the length Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 13, 2011 Share Posted June 13, 2011 You're so brave. If I were to see my ex with another girl, I think I'd just split my own throat on the spot. Link to post Share on other sites
Shaun-Dro Posted June 13, 2011 Share Posted June 13, 2011 Hello everyone I was considering posting a thread last week saying how I thought I was over my ex.. little did I know lol I walked into some coffee shop today to grab something to eat and the very first thing I see when I go in is my ex! His eyes were wide open with a semi-smile on his face. I look at the girl with him (someone I met once before, she seems nice lol I remember seeing a picture a mutual friend posted on fb of her setting next to my ex during his bday while he was wearing a shirt I bought him, was a bit annoyed at that). I had a quick look at the food there but felt like I lost my appetite so I left. I was panicking, felt like some strong electric current was passing through my body. Called a friend, had a rant and asked for permission to go back and just give him some look (very childish I know). So I went back 15min later, they were there, she was looking away, he was staring at me, looked at him from head to toe very quick lol (actually felt good!) grabbed a sandwich and left to pay. By the time I paid they were gone. I feel like they like eachother which annoys me (even though non of my business). Seemed like she was a bit embarrased to be seen by me sitting with my ex. I've been NC for about 2 months now. Was NC for 2 months a few months ago and then broke it for the sake of not making it awkward for our friends (we're on the same course). But then realised it wasn't a great idea. I don't think I love him now (since I think he's not the person I loved anymore so why even bother). But I think I'm very annoyed because I feel like I was used by him. When I couldn't make him happy I was just disposed. Now he's never short of female company. Unfortunately, he's a bit of an amazing guy lol.. very smart.. very intellectual.. people almost worship him. I can't help it but feel at times that I wasn't good enough. I think I stopped improving myself for sometime since I was struggling with med school and being very far away from home. Can't help it but think I couldn't satisfy his intellectual needs while other girls he's always with do. Feeling inadequate hurts. I think I've wasted a lot of time being down because of him. I don't want today to take me backwards. I'm in one of the toughest med schools in the country, very independent as I have been living away from my home country and family for a few yrs, and most people would agree that I'm quite good-looking. Yet, I don't seem to be able to move on. Exams are coming up in a month's time. Can't afford to screw things up and lose it all. I plan to do an evening course in a few months time for at least a yr. Continue going to gym. And focus on med school. I really want to start being the person I've always wanted to be. I want him to look at me and regret walking away. Sorry for the length Hit the gym, get curvy again, and find a new boyfriend. Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 13, 2011 Share Posted June 13, 2011 You're so brave. If I were to see my ex with another girl, I think I'd just split my own throat on the spot. I meant slit, ok. Lol all you want. I did. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Nita10 Posted June 13, 2011 Author Share Posted June 13, 2011 (edited) You're so brave. If I were to see my ex with another girl, I think I'd just split my own throat on the spot. You'd slit your throat over that? Wait for this.. A couple of months ago whenever I see him in the library he'd be with some girl.. they'd be taking breaks together and everything.. he introduced us and she wasn't over the moon to meet me (she knew we were together).. i'd always catch her and her friends staring at me which bothered me a lot.. One day she made it there early by herself.. Sat IN FRONT OF ME.. she asked the person near her if the seat between them is taken (clearly it wasn't) and made it known that she's saving it for her FRIEND (i suppose my ex).. she sat there in front of me.. putting alll the make-up in the world.. fixing her hair.. i swear it took her at least 45min.. eventually no one showed up.. got the feeling she told him she's sitting near me and he decided not to show up.. who knows.. On a few occasions that I've seen him there.. she'd run and stand beside him whenever I speak to him :S Like she's his gf or something! She clearly had something against me and it hurt me that he was spending too much time with her. Shaun, mate, I actually need to go easy on the gym since I've lost so much weight due to the post break-up depression! Edited June 13, 2011 by Nita10 Link to post Share on other sites
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