Told my mom tonight

[reimeivn]

I told my mom tonight that he was my first everything, and I broke into tears. Last time we talked, she asked me if I slept with him and if that was the reason I felt so worthless when he dumped me.

 

But she told me tonight that she could not respect my decision more. And she said that it should not make me sad, but proud of myself for not regretting the decision I made. It was the right decision if I would have made it, she said.

 

She said that now I know I have the capability of loving and giving my all to somebody. And that I should feel free from somebody that did not give me what I deserve, to be with somebody else better.

 

I could not see this coming. I thought she was going to tell me that I did something horribly wrong, and that she told me before I should wait until marriage and all that. Asian point of view because thats where we come from.

 

I am just happy right now. I want to wish you all to have somebody, or somewhere, to pour all your deepest emotions to. Your fears, your regrets, your thoughts, anything that keeps you attached to your ex. Because right now I feel like I have the biggest support in the whole world. And that I dont need anybody else to validate me, or my ex. I can live my life and careless about anybody else and what they think, and that the next two years of my life will be fabulous.

 

When I graduate, I will tell you guys, I will be the person that I could never been without this breakup. I will be true to myself, and face whatever comes my way. After all, I went half the world to be here with a scholarship by myself. I dont need my ex or anybody to be responsible for my happiness. I am in control of that.