reimeivn Posted June 16, 2011 Share Posted June 16, 2011 Well some memories just got back to my mind and I realized how much he has been lying to me, and how much he has been having a life without me in it, and I am angry. I hate myself tonight for not dumping him way earlier, and for trying to make him understand that it is just not right what he did. Yet I never did it. I let him hurt me. I felt like a fool. I hated all those girls that he hurt me with, and the fact that he is so much happier with them then with me, and that he purposefully did had a terrible time with me. I am hurt and I am angry. What to do?? Link to post Share on other sites
ccfan Posted June 16, 2011 Share Posted June 16, 2011 In the same boat here.... 9 months after the she dumped i thought i was doing decently, then i got a flu and with the fever ALL memories of all the horrible things she did to me were unlocked and i feel now really angry, i mean really angry at her, sometimes i even think about getting some sort of revenge... but that´s not the way to deal with this.... It sounds like the problem with your situation or mine is that we didn´t see the red flags sooner and we ended up being treated on purpose like garbage by our exes over and over again, so when time passes by, instead of being more at peace we feel that a cicle is unbalanced an incompleted. I thought about sending my ex a email telling her what a superficial, low level human being she is, by i know that these kind of people will end up not being affected nor think about what they did either, because they are selfish and plain bad persons. You are not alone in these feelings, hopefully they will pass... i know this is not too much confort to hear, but i believe karma will catch up to them sooner or later... our best bet is to never let them know that we are affected by what they did, actually just the opossite... Link to post Share on other sites
light_vader Posted June 17, 2011 Share Posted June 17, 2011 It sounds like the problem with your situation or mine is that we didn´t see the red flags sooner and we ended up being treated on purpose like garbage by our exes over and over again, so when time passes by, instead of being more at peace we feel that a cicle is unbalanced an incompleted. Yes, so true in my case too. And i screwed it up so much by still trying to save her... save her from what? from herself? Now I even regret contacting her POST breakup and sharing my wisdom.. I thought about sending my ex a email telling her what a superficial, low level human being she is, by i know that these kind of people will end up not being affected nor think about what they did either, because they are selfish and plain bad persons. Yes and in my case I think I've done nothing but making her bitter and bitter by sending her messages and the like. I stayed 2 weeks NC and last weekend I screwed it up and stuff hehehe But since the start of this week I have felt something different and now I think I am finally getting over her... It's a long way to the top still.. If I wanna rock & roll.. ermmm... get over her for good. But the important thing is for me to recognize I'm getting there slowly. And I feel I won't contact her again ever, I think I got the last thought I wanted to share out now and feel more relieved, although like I said, I still feel like an idiot for contacting her. You are not alone in these feelings, hopefully they will pass... i know this is not too much comfort to hear, but i believe karma will catch up to them sooner or later... our best bet is to never let them know that we are affected by what they did, actually just the opposite... The selfish part of me says "hopefully karma exists" but I think that's just a negative thought, to desire her bad. I should just focus on my ME, getting the pieces back together, improving my mind, relaxing and just... plain simple... enjoying life!! So I can meet someone eventually who shares the same point of view and with whom I can expend a better relationship with, even if we end up broking up, hopefully, as adults, not as kiddos. Link to post Share on other sites
wilsonx Posted June 17, 2011 Share Posted June 17, 2011 Well some memories just got back to my mind and I realized how much he has been lying to me, and how much he has been having a life without me in it, and I am angry. I hate myself tonight for not dumping him way earlier, and for trying to make him understand that it is just not right what he did. Yet I never did it. I let him hurt me. I felt like a fool. I hated all those girls that he hurt me with, and the fact that he is so much happier with them then with me, and that he purposefully did had a terrible time with me. I am hurt and I am angry. What to do?? you're going to hate me saying this because all my family and friends said this to me a while ago and i resented them for doing it but 3 weeks out i will tell you something.... "It doesnt matter what your ex is doing" I write it on my arm everyday in sharpie marker to remind me... I have people comment what that means and I tell them its to get past my breakup and they understand... I seriously write "IT DOESNT MATTER" in red sharpie on my left arm and I always look down at it when i think of her. It really helps alot Link to post Share on other sites
Author reimeivn Posted June 17, 2011 Author Share Posted June 17, 2011 No I dont hate your saying that. I get what you mean. It doesnt matter. All that hurt me just from the past. Just the past and it should not matter anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
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