wilsonx Posted June 17, 2011 Share Posted June 17, 2011 And I do not want to, I have been NC for a week now and we have to pull her off the lease at the apartment and I really do not want to see her at all but i am tired of picking at the scab that is her in my life and I have to be there and see her Link to post Share on other sites
Author wilsonx Posted June 18, 2011 Author Share Posted June 18, 2011 So I saw her today and guess what... mentally and physically, I was doing way better then she was... way better! She couldnt look me in the eye because she knows she probably made the biggest mistake of her life and wont swallow her pride. It was awesome, my friends have told me that Ive lost 15 pounds since Ive last seen them (and she has gained a few pounds). She told me that she wanted to call me twice last week but I told her I wanted NC so that I could heal and become a better person. She told me that she had a personal problem to ask me and I told her that I was no longer her security blanket, she fired me from the position a couple weeks ago because i caught her emotionally cheating with another coworker plus having beers with him and lying to me about it for 5 weeks. Even though she brought me down to her level when she broke up with me, I have learned that the breakup was not my fault. For the past 3 weeks I was trying to figure out what the F I did but in the end, I didn't do anything wrong, she broke up with me because she has GIGS and I busted her on having an emotional relationship with someone 14 years older then her and a huge downgrade from me Link to post Share on other sites
reimeivn Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 this is awesome. she possibly knows that she did wrong. happy for you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author wilsonx Posted June 18, 2011 Author Share Posted June 18, 2011 yea... now im stuck between a rock and a hard place... i have to lock no contact down... and work on healing so that whatever happens whatever happens Link to post Share on other sites
neverendingdrama Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 and keep it up. It is never fun to see an ex. I had to see mine in court for minor charges he faces. I had a few rough days following that incident , but they were not happy thoughts. He looked the same and I have changed myself for the better. You look at them with such disgust. Almost to a point of " what the hell was I thinking". I thought I would rather die alone than with this piece of work. Topper , they are the one with issues and it will always be your fault in their eyes. I left him after outbursts and prior abuse. He will always make excuses for his ****ty behavior. That how liars roll and there is no changing that. The nice thing is , you don't need to be around to witness their utter dysfunction. You know your worth and they are not in that equation. Keep up with the NC and stand your ground. Regain your power. Oh and guess what ?? the grass was greener , now hers is just burnt up dirt. Let her find out the hard way and keep your backbone and your integrity. It is priceless. Good Luck !!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author wilsonx Posted June 19, 2011 Author Share Posted June 19, 2011 Thanks for the replies, it kept me from emailing her, the more NC i go, the more miserable she becomes and I have a feeling she may knock within a couple of months Link to post Share on other sites
jacksonBrown Posted June 19, 2011 Share Posted June 19, 2011 yea... now im stuck between a rock and a hard place... i have to lock no contact down... and work on healing so that whatever happens whatever happens thats the way man concentrate on healing yourself NC all the way your in a good spot at the moment dont let her string you along:D Link to post Share on other sites
Author wilsonx Posted June 19, 2011 Author Share Posted June 19, 2011 she just sent me a txt saying happy fathers day... im not a dad Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted June 19, 2011 Share Posted June 19, 2011 she just sent me a txt saying happy fathers day... im not a dad lol, that was random. Link to post Share on other sites
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