AlisaMarie Posted June 17, 2011 Share Posted June 17, 2011 Why does this hurt... why why why why. He wants to play with other girls, he left and took things to be spiteful, he used me to help raise his son so he can get his **** together.... then treats me like I did something wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't do anything but love and respect him even when he was being a selfish idiot. I know how to move on but it's only the first day and I just wish I could erase the past two years of my freaking life. Link to post Share on other sites
lovesickmonkey Posted June 17, 2011 Share Posted June 17, 2011 Two years. That's the same length of time I would erase ... but I can't. Just continue to seek the support from people you love. I'm starting to realize that the best I can do is use this horrible experience to be the best person I can from this day forward. We can't erase the past and we can't change it, but we can change our future. It's going to take me many more months but I know I have to let go of my anger and forgive her and move forward. It's going to be hell but there's no other way. You're not alone. Link to post Share on other sites
Author AlisaMarie Posted June 17, 2011 Author Share Posted June 17, 2011 He was soooo rude and hateful towards me. It's like his way of coping I suppose. I just wanted everyone to be happy and and bent till I broke neglecting myself. But now depression is sinking in. It's going to be another long awful summer. Link to post Share on other sites
WTRanger Posted June 18, 2011 Share Posted June 18, 2011 I know you are going through a lot, and I know you are hurting. But you have to remember that your thoughts dictate your life. If you think it is going to be a crappy summer, then you will have a crappy summer. Your ex won't affect the outcome of your summer, your mind will. Your influence over your own thoughts will. This is how I see it. You did what you thought was best for you life. When you were on here 6 months ago, we all told you not to take him back. But you did. You did it, because you felt it was the best thing to do at the time. I don't fault you for it, no one faults you for it. So, why fault yourself? So it didn't work out. So he's acting like a royal ass right now. None of that is within your control. Don't even start to think about why he's doing this, you'll never figure that out. You can control yourself and figure yourself out, that's it. So let him be a wiener. Meanwhile, you'll focus on you and get yourself through this and become a stronger woman because of it. Remember, your thoughts dictate your life. Think positive, and if you have to, fake it till you make it. Link to post Share on other sites
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