First Love, Mother of my child, Ex-Fiance, Cheater.

[ZaqRE]

This is a rather long story but I'll try to keep it short.

 

First off, when I got together with this girl. She was engaged at 19 to a guy in the Air Force in Iraq. She was unhappy but engaged none the less. I went to a house party of hers. She took my virginity. I know, a virgin at 19.... Kinda pathetic. I was drunk and was escorted up to a bedroom. We had sex. I was sprung off my first like everyone else. I hung out with her a few times after that knowing she was engaged. We then started dating. She broke up with him for me. I should have known better. The saying, "Once a cheater, always a cheater." is so true.

 

Two months later, I got her pregnant. 19 years old and I thought it was a good idea to have a child with this girl I hardly knew. So, we decided to keep it and moved in together.

 

We were together for 4 years. Like every relationship, we had our ups and downs. For the last 2 years I could swear I was being cheated on. I just thought I was being paranoid. I'm sure I was even though I have no proof of that one.

 

3 years into the relationship we moved into a better apartment. My own jealousy was killing the relationship at this time. I knew something was going on. She was a little too friendly with the leasing agent of our apartment complex. She texted him constantly. Swore they were just friends. She told me I was over reacting. I forgot about it and then months later she told me something else. She kissed a co worker and swore it was eating her up inside.

 

I knew I was being cheated on so I broke up with her over the make out thing with this guy she works with. I moved out at now 23 years old and came back to my parent's house with my tail between my legs. I was going to take her back and then we got into a fight. She told me that she was dating the apartment manager for 6 months. The news devastated me.

 

We've been broken up for 7 months and I've been trying to get over it. I just can't. I learned how to be an adult next to this woman. So much of my personality is to be her partner that I have a hard time letting go. Normally, I would cut off all ties and walk away. It's just not that simple due to our daughter.

 

I don't even remember how it was to be single. I don't know what I'm looking for by posting this but.... Here goes nothing.

[reimeivn]

I never saw myself single without my ex too. But there will come a day when you know that you are EXCITED to start a new life without her. Every step you make in moving on with your new life will soon amaze you.

 

You will get there, I promise. Leave her behind. You lived for her enough.