losing my mind?

[Mimimia]

I am going crazy and I need some advice please! I think my husband may be

cheating on me and I can't eat, sleep, or think. He has a very sick parent and

has been staying at his parents' house for the last several weeks. Let me preface this by saying he has ALWAYS been extremely secretive

about emails, texts, etc and has always cleared his call history, even at times

clearing MY phone history. Is this because he has always been guilty of

something or is just OCD? Who knows.

Anyway, last week I checked the one email address that he uses for regular stuff and I have the password for. I was looking to retrieve something that I had emailed him and accidentally deleted. When I checked his sent

folder, there were several emails from himself to his other email (the one I

have never had password for) and they were faceless nude pics that appear to have the file name like a blackberry phone (i.e. IMG-20110510-2230). They were TAKEN that night at 10:30 and he emailed them to himself 2 hours later. In the same batch of emails was an older pic of his ex (mother of his kid). I think the pics look like the ex, but I showed someone else and they said they didn't think so. Anyway, when I confronted him, he didn't get angry (and he is a hothead), at first acted like he needed to see what I was talking about, then denied they were texted to him. He said he likes amateur wife porn and he downloaded those pics from a website to look at later. Is this even possible for a downloaded website pic to (A) still show a Blackberry format and (B) have been only a couple of hours old when he got it? I have scoured her facebook to compare fingers, shape, etc (Yes, I am losing it) and the floor of her house IS the same hardwood as in the pics. The naked pic person also has a tattoo and a c-section scar (which she had a c-section, but I don't know about the tattoo). He swears on his sick parent that he would never cheat, that he only wants me, but he keeps his other email because he likes porn and I get angry about porn. He says why would he want his skanky ex, if he wanted her he would have stayed with her, etc. He is now starting to get angry when I mention it, says I need to get past it, that he hasn't done anything wrong and never will. When I said faithfulness is the most important thing, he said "well no sh*t, huh?"

Anyway, I have spent a solid month searching through porn sites, craigslist,

hookup sites, etc looking for ANYTHING to prove he is telling the truth. I did

confide in my brother and he said even if a girl sent him nude pics it doesn't

guarantee cheating, that sometimes girls just do crap like that.

So- in an outsider's opinion, is there ANY way that he is innocent, or am I

foolish for even hoping?

[Linda9999]

Sure there's a chance he's telling the truth. There's also a chance the sun will rise in the west tomorrow.