Everything a lie or is it jus coincidence?

[calndn]

Im now 8 months into my breakup although really we saw quite a bit of eachother this year up until March so I take it as 3 months of almost nc (weve bumped into eachother three times since end of march once we chatted for a while another time it was just a hello and most recent it was that we passed eachother in our cars but both saw eachother). Anyway I wont go into too much detail as ive said what happened on here before but he dumped me because he wanted to be young free and single and have fun. Didnt want to be in a relationship anymore and just didnt have the same feelings about the relationship anymore. I was devastated ive been seeing a counsellor the last 10 weeks or so as I tried to kill myself back in March. Hes been awful hes given me false hope and kept txting/meeting up with me giving me hope that something might happen again only for it to all end horridly where he basically told me to f off and get a life. Im feeling 100 times better than I felt 3 months ago, in fact I havent felt this better about things for ages, its been a long time since I was happy.

 

Anyway throughout all the mind f*****g that he did by seeing me again back at the beginning of the year and the false hope and telling me he still loved me but then the next time being like no i dont then again back to yes i do. (seriously messed with my head). He kept saying throughout that he just didnt want a relationship. I now have good reason to believe hes seeing/going out with someone. I dont know 100% but my friends saw him on a date with a girl about 2 months ago and since then ive found out who she is and seen that hes now friends with this girls sisters on fbook and one of the sisters has put 'see you soon' on his wall on fbook. I dont know if im jumping to conclusions and whether nothing is happening but im just convinced it is. Its hard yes but whats harder is that he kept telling me he didnt want a relationship but cared so much about me etc. Was it all lies? Or was it that hes met someone he likes (if something is going on). I just cant stop thinking about it. Ive seen what she looks like, I think im an attractive person and she is relatively too, very different from me which i think is a good thing but really it doesnt matter what they look like, shes older than him by 8 years which i find odd as shes at the age where women would really want to be settling down or have something serious and well....he doesnt want that!

 

Its just annoying me,...you know? Has anyone else experienced somehting like this?

 

Also one thing that keeps me slightly happy is that hes put a ton of weight on since the breakup where as ive lost it. He is a little tubby now whereas when i was with him he was in good shape. And he isnt looking as good as he can. The last time I saw him I just thought how pathetic he looked. I dont even want him anymore but the girl thing...just annoys me xxx