amethyste Posted July 7, 2011 Share Posted July 7, 2011 As the title says - I'm having a tiny break down right now. It's my 2nd week of NC, and: I went to the supermarket to buy the ingredients for a fruit soup, and it reminded me of my ex. Next time we were supposed to see each other, I wanted to make him some... we used to call it "untitled fruit thingie", because he said there's no such thing as a soup made out of fruits It's not like this is the first time I'm thinking about him, but I don't know why it triggered such feelings... I feel sad, nervous, angry... I won't contact him, this is the only thing I know for sure. But I feel like activating all of my accounts just to check what he's doing... Gahhh, it's so annoying! Something like "I know he's doing perfectly fine without me, but I need to see it with my own eyes, just to hurt myself & suffer even more." This is actually he first time when I really feel angry... I feel like strangling & kissing him in the same time :confused: Link to post Share on other sites
luvbug89 Posted July 7, 2011 Share Posted July 7, 2011 I feel your pain today my mini-break down happened after hearing some "meh" news from a university I'm trying to transfer to and also, my job. Ugh. I'm so tired of it. These kind of things would mess up my day, but if we were together one phone call with him would help calm me down and be more positive. I miss him tremendously. I get what your saying about snooping around to just check up on him. I would, but my ex rarely goes on his FB and I don't even have a FB so that's a little relieving. He never goes on his twitter either so I have basically no way of checking up on him at all lol. You're doing great though, for 2 weeks of NC. It's hard, I know. The memories are always there. But just be positive and have a list full of things to do each day to take your mind off some things I'm trying to do that! Link to post Share on other sites
Author amethyste Posted July 7, 2011 Author Share Posted July 7, 2011 These kind of things would mess up my day, but if we were together one phone call with him would help calm me down and be more positive. I miss him tremendously. Talking to my ex was very relaxing because of that reason. Right now, except for LS, I literally have no one to turn to for a little bit of help/ support... and this is a bit maddening. I won't snoop around. I know I'm not a mad stalker, and I'd also like to prove to myself that I can refrain from things that hurt me. I'm a bit better... stuffing myself with pizza & pancakes Link to post Share on other sites
reimeivn Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 you will have a lot of these so dont beat yourself up too hard about it. It is totally natural but it will get to a point that you dont even care if you talk to him or not. me myself seriously think i need to just snap, get over this one ex of mine quickly. He dumped me so, no matter how awesome he is, hehe, i believe that few people know how not awesome he is like i do, doesnt matter. i dont want to be with him. be with me, and decided that he could do better, that breaking my heart is the best he could do? then gone. Seriously, think about that when you get sad. You have a whole life waiting for you to be happy and grateful for it. I know you dont want your fabulous life, you want your ****ty relationship back, or maybe its him that makes your life fabulous, you think. Good, then now its your turn to make it fabulous, or somebody else's turn, because you found one, you will find another one. Link to post Share on other sites
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