wilsonx Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 (edited) Today was the worst day for me emotionally. I am a lesson why you never go back to your ex. She broke up with me back in March and decided to come back and of course I let her in with open arms. Only for her to use me for her codependency while she found someone else to be her emotional crutch and kick me to the curb 2 1/2 months later when I caught her with him. I would have survived the first break up fine but this one is the worst I have ever felt in my life. Not only did she use me, she betrayed me and I allowed it. It hurts 15xs more then the first break up. I was at work all day crying with zero control of my emotions. It was really bad and I usually keep my emotions in check. I only work with 2 other people during the day and both of them have been extremely supportive of me and I would consider them way better friends then I ever would have considered my ex. Future advice for those entering new relationships after this. Always keep your friends close. Never lose them due to a relationship. My friends have been welcoming me with open arms back in their lives and Ive made a lot of new friends that I will always place second. I will always come first in future relationships. Oh yea Im day 19 NC and my ex does not have the balls to ever contact me again. She knows what she did and she knows I know what she did. I for one have 0 interest in ever speaking to her again. Edited July 8, 2011 by wilsonx Link to post Share on other sites
reimeivn Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 its a good thing you dont want to ever contact her again. i think its a very good thing as i felt that way when i went nc and i have been feeling so much better ever since. it gets to the point its just you wanting to have something you used to have you know, even jealousy that somebody else have it. not like you love that thing. so its good. you are doing good. karma will catch up to her. sooner or later. we just dont hear people talk about it because they move on long before it happens to their ex, which is also a good thing, because then we dont even have to waste anytime on the ex anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
Author wilsonx Posted July 8, 2011 Author Share Posted July 8, 2011 its a good thing you dont want to ever contact her again. i think its a very good thing as i felt that way when i went nc and i have been feeling so much better ever since. it gets to the point its just you wanting to have something you used to have you know, even jealousy that somebody else have it. not like you love that thing. so its good. you are doing good. karma will catch up to her. sooner or later. we just dont hear people talk about it because they move on long before it happens to their ex, which is also a good thing, because then we dont even have to waste anytime on the ex anymore. haha he can have her... there is no jealousy here... the only thing that stings is the downgrade and I mean she dumpster dove for him but thats it... I've never been a jealous person until the end of this relationship because I knew something was going on but after this amount of NC and my friends support, there's absolutely no way the manipulative bitch will ever re enter my life. I honestly do not believe in karma. after being the victim of a hit and run, it really does not matter to me. I moved on from that just like I will move on from this. Link to post Share on other sites
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