Yona88 Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 It's only been a day and a total rollercoaster ride. I'm almost scared to sleep because I don't want my mind to wander and think about him and get sad again. He has blocked all ways of communication. Totally shut me out. He detached himself from the situation entirely. I do not exist to him right now. It's insane to think just 2 days ago, we were cuddling in bed. I've been talking to his mom on the phone the last couple days and she is keeping me informed about things. And giving me advice to give him space. She has been concerned and asking how I'm doing. I'm really appreciative of it but... her mentioning that maybe or maybe not after we've both had some time apart, it's possible for us to reconcile. The "maybe.. maybe not" thing. It's getting to me. I do not want to live on any sense of false hope. I can not get any closure from him. He won't speak to me. I am in the dust wondering where we stand. I don't believe this is fair to do. I'm stuck in limbo wondering if I should wait it out, or if he considers us done. Having any possible hope is making his healing process very hard. Link to post Share on other sites
kittycat95 Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 hey there, i'm in day THREE of NC and I am fully giving up hope too. As much as I feel things got really bad at the end I can't help but wish he will come back! I am scared to death thinking of how i'll feel at one week NC...then two weeks NC...then ONE MONTH nc...granted, by then I might care a little less, but seriously, if that's that, then I don't know. It's great you are in touch with his mother. I'm sure she can give you decent support. I saw you just posted now -- I am also up late languishing in my hopelessness! You aren't alone girl. *hug* Link to post Share on other sites
amethyste Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 What happened? Why does he ignore you, if you were cuddling in bed 2 days ago? I think you should not keep in touch with his mother. What if he finds out and gets mad? Or what if he's telling his mother what to say? Furthermore, you don't need her as an "insider" who tells you what's going on. For now, leave things as they are. Most of us around here didn't get any closure, so please try to accept the idea that you might never get a real explanation. Peace comes from within. Link to post Share on other sites
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