stuck in the friend zone...why...???

[FaithInTheDark]

There is this guy that used to hang out with our group of friends wayy back - we were never friends..but he randomly emailed me out of the blue and asked to hang out and reconnect..I figured why not right..so we made plans and i came over and had some beer. we got along really good..and talked for hours. we started to cuddle , he was all over me.and we fooled around. i never slept with him at this point. i stayed over and the next day i was thinking about him alot- realized i liked him. we talked alot on facebook

about 2 days later i had to drive to the same area he lives and run some errands and wanted to see him again..he told me i was welcome to come over...so we listened to music and drank some beer and watched a movie..we went to his bedroom and one thing led to another..i was just in the heat of passion and we ended up having sex..if u call it that...it only lasted less than 2 mins and it was over haha...not that im using that against him..but i really didnt get much out of it on my behalf. the next day..

we talked about going camping and i was organizing everything for the trip..i emailed him a few times about camping...then we started talking on fb chat...hes like "i really enjoy listenin to music with u ..cuddling..and spending time with u..but i hope we can be friends most of all. ..i dont really know what u want but at this point i just want to have fun and have good company. i hope i didnt upset you..i like to be honest. "

I told him i appreciate him being honest...i did just get out a relationship a while ago..and im not looking for something really serious...i told him i wasnt really down with random booty calls though. but i was not upset.

--- now ive been thinking..i did like him ..and im kinda disapointed that he just wanted to be friends and told me this the day after we hooked up...he is a really nice person and cool...but damn...kinda harsh..thats how guys are though.i wasnt lying to him about not wanting something serious i just wanted something real.

him and a group of friends and i all went camping the next day...he was nice to me..but we didnt talk that much to each other..just a little bit and had no phyical contact..there was our friends around too..i thought was kinda harsh cus things didnt feel that same at all..i felt kinda lonely around him.

i cant help but feel kinda sad that he only see me as a friend after what happend...i know that i should of waited to see were we stood and took my time before we hooked up...i dont want to be grilled fm others feedback about that cus i know..but sometimes u have needs too...

im wondering..if he really isnt looking for a relationship..or just not a relationship with me..my personality can be in ur face and maybe it was too much for him...or maybe i was contacting him too much and making him feel obligated or something.maybe i should of held back a bit?.i dont want to reflect on it but i feel like i lost a friend that i really liked being around.i feel maybe i did something wrong ..i liked looking foward to seeing him..but ill deal...anyone have similar experiences to share , or kind feedback? anything insight? thanks guys. i just needed to vent..cus i have not talked to anyone about it...and would like to process it healthily and no supress it.