kittycat95 Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 Overslept today and didn't get up til well past noon. He hasn't called or emailed or texted in the whole time I've gone NC. I feel soooo sad so tempted to break nc (I won't....). i'm almost 25...and we've been together 4-5 years, which is nearly 1/5 of my entire life. I just feel so depressed, I miss him so much, I cannot believe he hasn't tried to contact me. Whatever we had it's like it's completely disappeared and been replaced by so much anger or hate or whatever. I'm just so ridiculously depressed right now :'( Link to post Share on other sites
Author kittycat95 Posted July 8, 2011 Author Share Posted July 8, 2011 I know soon the day will come when he has a new girlfriend who will give him everything I never did, who will always be nice, never mean, who won't ever feel insecure or give him troubles... and I don't know how I will act when that day comes. I don't know how I will be able to handle it :'( Link to post Share on other sites
Author kittycat95 Posted July 8, 2011 Author Share Posted July 8, 2011 Feels like I will be alone forever and will never find a good man again . I thought he and I were perfect together... I don't want to deal with meeting someone else, falling in love, etc, give it all I have and then see it fall apart after a few years AGAIN. I just want him back :'( How can he not even miss me? Link to post Share on other sites
WTRanger Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 If you were perfect, you wouldn't have broken up now would you? NC is NOT, I repeat NOT, about him missing you. It's for you and you alone. It's not a tool to get them to contact you, it's nothing. It's so you stop thinking the way you are thinking and always digging yourself into a pit of depression. Instead of thinking about when he meets someone, think about you meeting someone new. And, yes, you will. You are young, you have 60 plus years ahead of you. Your life is not over. Link to post Share on other sites
Author kittycat95 Posted July 8, 2011 Author Share Posted July 8, 2011 So tempted to break NC...:'( what if I call him sometime and some girl picks up :'( I just want to beg and plead for him not to leave me and to come back :'( Link to post Share on other sites
Yona88 Posted July 8, 2011 Share Posted July 8, 2011 Do you need someone to talk to via IM kittykat? I am on day 2 of NC and your post looks like someone I would have posted. I slept in as well. Totally depressed. 4-5 years is brutal! Mine was alittle over 2. Link to post Share on other sites
Author kittycat95 Posted July 8, 2011 Author Share Posted July 8, 2011 yes yona if you're available i'd love to talk Link to post Share on other sites
Author kittycat95 Posted July 9, 2011 Author Share Posted July 9, 2011 I don't know how to send PMs...do you use aim? What's your sn? Link to post Share on other sites
Yona88 Posted July 9, 2011 Share Posted July 9, 2011 Oh I'm gonna have to make one. lol :x I haven't touched AIM in so long! I'll go make one. My skype is its_yona, if you have that though. Link to post Share on other sites
Author kittycat95 Posted July 9, 2011 Author Share Posted July 9, 2011 i just added you yona check it out (on skype) Link to post Share on other sites
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