roflmao Posted July 18, 2011 Share Posted July 18, 2011 I've always been a pretty lonely kid: never had a whole lot of friends and didn't interact as much. That probably caused me to keep most of my feelings inside me. Now, as I get older, I realize that life is ephemeral and, in our journey here, it can change dramatically over time. I'm now afraid of not being able to tell the people I love how much they mean to me. My parents for example: I LOVE THEM! I honestly do! And I know that they love each other as well, so I honestly feel that I'm the result of their love. They've always been there for me and I couldn't ask for more of them. But, in all my life, I feel that I didn't show them how much I love them. I can't get the "I love you" sentence out of my mouth, for some reason. And I just can't avoid having this idea that they don't know how much they love them. That's really breaking my heart. I don't see the rest of my family very often, and I honestly don't have a close friend who I can consider as my 2nd family. Also, being lonely and alone, aside from my colleagues in school/college, caused me to not know and share my true feelings with others. I created some sort of shell that blocks my deepest feelings. Sometimes that can be good, but it kills me inside not to have courage to tell someone special how much he/she means to me. I'm sorry if I didn't make much sense, but I found it quite hard to explain it in words. If I don't fight this blockage I'm afraid I'll have a lifetime of loneliness. )= Link to post Share on other sites
jayz82 Posted July 18, 2011 Share Posted July 18, 2011 I have the exact same problem as you but i never show my feelings because when i do i usually get hurt. So it can be a sort of self defense mechanism, I have not been able to overcome it myself but when an impermeable wall is put up as in my case it is not easy to overcome. Although i just started to see a therapist i know i have a lot of work to do to correct this. Link to post Share on other sites
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