JTG707 Posted July 19, 2011 Share Posted July 19, 2011 It's been over a month now since she left for her ex. This has already happened to me once before and after that first time I told myself I wouldn't ever let someone get close enough to cause me any pain but for some reason I let her in. I get that it's over and I accept that. It's just hard for me to live with the guilt. I admit I wasn't the best boyfriend in the world. There were times where I took things out on her and I wish I could take it all back but it's way too late. She's clearly moved on and I need to do the same. When I'm with my friends I act like everything is okay, but the truth is that this is crushing me inside. I don't talk to any of them because I don't want to burden anyone else; it's not their problem anyways. I don't want to make everyone else feel down while I'm around them. I tell myself that everything is okay that I can move on just like I did before, but some nights like tonight I can't get over the loneliness of it all. I don't know, it's just hard when you live with someone for that long and then their just erased from your life.. I try to get out of the house as much as possible and spend time with friends and family but it's just not the same.. Does anyone else feel like this? Link to post Share on other sites
smudge21 Posted July 19, 2011 Share Posted July 19, 2011 We all feel like this, especially when it's only been a month. Just give it more time - there is no time limit set for healing. You will have good and bad days, so just accept that reality and work through them. Things will get easier. Link to post Share on other sites
Author JTG707 Posted July 20, 2011 Author Share Posted July 20, 2011 Thanks for the reply It's only been a month so I know it will get easier eventually. Everything heals with time, but it's just killing me right now. For some reason I can't get the image of her and her ex being together. I know I shouldn't even think about things like that but it's hard. It's ironic actually, when we first got together she wanted to break up with me because she thought I was still in love with MY ex. Then she turns around and leaves me for HER ex because she still loves him. I don't even know if she really even loved me or if she was trying to use me to replace him.. Link to post Share on other sites
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