PlzDelte Posted August 1, 2011 Share Posted August 1, 2011 *Sorry if this thread is in the wrong place, by my logic it is, because my sub conscious clearly isn't doing very well* Well as you can grasp already, my dreams are mocking me and I think a bit of background info is needed. - I've had depression now for just over a year, a lot of that's been 'I'd really rather be dead' and then around April (I think) I decided to do something about it. I messed up and ended up on an adolescent psychiatric ward. [Now I did what I did and there's no going back so no need to comment]. There were generally 11 to 12 other people from 14-17 y.o there as well. In a sense it was like some warped summer camp where we all live together. My stay was for 12 weeks. -Event- Now picture this, your general needlessly over attractive 17 year old and the (at the time) only two guys on the ward going..ok well she's so far out of our leagues I can't even think of something to compare it to. So ye, that league. Then there's me with no experience with girls, never had a girlfriend, no female friends, etc etc. And that situation was all fine until she started being all confusing and (slightly more than normal) friendly (but nothing obvious, so i just went, ok I'm reading to much into this crap, learning from history as all great humans should do, she doesnt like me.) So then THAT was all fine and tandy, til one of the girls there - another story - who was so depressed, anything she said she'd actually mean (my first unconditional love i've figured) and then she goes saying how the girl seems to like me. Inside I was like :?...then I thought maybe there was a god. Now I didn't play it man, or how I wanted it to be, but at that stage in time I was ready to leave there and just wanted to know..so ..I asked one of her friends to find out (handly enuf since we all lived together 'her friend' was my friend which i had known longer, so its none of this high school clique bs.). In the end I end up sitting in my room ****ting everything in and around me at the possibility that A. God exists, and has mercy and B. Me as a human being doesnt suck. So those prospects were thoroughly waved in my face until there untimely death at the hand of realistic rejection. Thats the background info. Here's the problem. Apart from the fact I keep having annoying dreams about unrealistic situations but last night I had a dream where all that **** did work out. These kind of dreams keep happening. Its SO F*CKING annoying. I accept its my sub conscious and i guess it wanted it whilst consciously I just accept what happened (and the truth). Now I just need someone with an idea on how to stop these dreams or i swear i'm going to stop sleeping. I spoke to my psychiatrist who had no solution and I'm not telling my parents about girl troubles I consciously dont give a f*ck about as all i do is play pc all day. But i'll stfu now. Sorry for the essay, its really bugging me. E.D Link to post Share on other sites
Author PlzDelte Posted August 1, 2011 Author Share Posted August 1, 2011 By the lack of replies I'm guessing my sub conscious (or conscious..or both) is a total prat.. Link to post Share on other sites
rosie72 Posted August 2, 2011 Share Posted August 2, 2011 No you're not a total prat - its a tough one though so maybe thats why people havent replied. its not that they dont care.. I'm also having trouble with dreams the same as you - mine about my ex. I dont think there's anything we can do - our minds are working overtime to make sense of the situation and turn it all around in our heads, and it comes out in our dreams. I guess its wishful thinking at a subconcsious level, and we cant help that. Last night i dreamt my ex was holding me in bed, a really loving embrace, and everything was ok. Even through my dream i thought to myself - ah its all going to be ok thank god, hes changed his mind about leaving me. We are 'split' but we are still living together because now is not a good time to tell our son cos of stuff hes going through. So we still have to sleep in the same bed - its horrible. So anyway, i woke after this dream to see him with his back to me and as far across the bed as possible. It was agony. I totally know how these dream can ***k us up, but i'm not so sure we can do anything to change them. Youre going through a really bad time, i really feel for you. i wish i could help... Link to post Share on other sites
Forever Learning Posted August 2, 2011 Share Posted August 2, 2011 (edited) Your mind is probably doing something it needs to be doing via dreams to work out some kinks and figure out problems that are on the backburner during the day. Roll with it and let your mind work itself out during your sleep. Keep a journal and see if over the long term you see a pattern of recurring issues that your mind is grappling with. That could be a way of bringing your conscious mind (journaling the dreams when awake) and your dreaming mind together, to work in unison on the issues that are puzzling and need sorted out by your brain. Your brain is learning and trying to sort things and find meaning and make sense of your life experiences. Be sure you exercise during the day and don't drink caffeine before bed, could further disrupt your sleep patterns which need to unfold naturally, it is essential to your mental health. Edited August 2, 2011 by Forever Learning Link to post Share on other sites
Author PlzDelte Posted August 2, 2011 Author Share Posted August 2, 2011 Its kills, but I guess its just my subconscious saying go make friends and find love..and all that unrealistic twoddle. Which ends up being one thing that really annoys me...half my brain with its unrealistic desires and aspirations Link to post Share on other sites
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