Ex- Girlfriend - Hart to Understand.

[CantLoseHer]

So basically one week ago my girlfriend broke up with me because she said she didn't get the emotional gratification that she wanted. Which I do joke around and could have done more lovey-dovey stuff. And I wanted to try and seriously work on that, because I love her a lot, and it wasn't that much to ask of me. Anyways she said it's a break up not a work on. So I see her two days later coming from her job and try to tell her that I appologize for what I did in the relationship- thats basically how far I got because she said she had company (her family came in town) that day, and that she would text me and we could finish it up later. So the next day one of her friends posted a status that was basically like when you love someone that doesn't mean they love you back. I replied "Yeh "/" My ex flipped out on me on fb (We werent even friends on fb since the breakup) Saying stop looking for a pitty party and trying to empathize with something that didnt even happen to you... So I appologized and told her that wasn't my intention and etc. and all she said was "sure" "right" "yep" after what I said until the final message, "Idk why youre angry with me, I apologized, I really didnt mean to upset you". So she didn't answer me the rest of the night, the next day, until the morning after at 720 saying Youre not respecting me, giving me the space that I wanted. ANd I feel like this is a game because I didnt even say anything to her those 1 and a half days, and I'm pretty sure she saw the message that day.. Anyways there's that. And today I saw her at work (we work together) And basically I kept my distance, And I was about to have a breakdown, because I heard about how she went to the club the night before with her girlfriends and how she loves me but I'm not the one and stuff from her fb that my friend told me. I knew all that stuff prior to going to work but its like when I saw her, and her beautiful face and how she was being all sweet to everyone it just broke me down. I ended up going out to my car and crying on my break. I just wish things could go right with her, and I could prove to her that I can change and will and be the man to treat her right. And before, she didn't really have any friends, she didnt like to party go to clubs etc, and I was always there for her when her friends were being mean or they had fights, whatever. But now its like she's getting more and more and doing stuff with them and putting me farther and farther behind in her memory. Honestly, she probably doesn't think of me anymore, is enjoying the single life and whatever. But its hard for me to do that knowing that this could very well be the last straw and well never get back together. I feel like her pride and everything will be too great to get back with me, even if I change, show her, and try and do everything for the better of us. I say that because I'm the only other guy figure that was in her life besides her step-dad, and he lives 500 miles from her and sees her about once a year. Her real dad she dropped all contact with him for 5 years and told me that she'll be fine if she never talks to him again.

 

So I haven't talked to her for 2 days since I didnt respond to that message she had at 7:20. I just really hope things can maybe work out, like I want to be friends first, because we've always been atleast that. But I know many people cant be friends with ex's so, it just sucks, losing that smart, beautiful woman, who I thought I would share the rest of my life with.