hew Posted August 5, 2011 Share Posted August 5, 2011 So the day after my breakup i posted a letter to anyone hurting on here and that made me feel so good about myself. But i have to admit i really miss my ex, he was my best friend and his friends were my friends and now i lost all of that too. I just want the tight feeling in my chest to go away, i dont want to have dreams of him every night, i dont want to wake up and have him automatially on my mind. i want to wake up happy, and i just feel like this will take longer then i want to get over this. I know i cant just write down on my calender that in 3 weeks ill be ok again, cause i dont know when i will be. It hurts to hear him with someone new already. I dont get how someone who promised me so much, and told me i was his everything can just walk away from me so easily. Im heartbroken, i feel lonely, and i dont even want to sleep in my bed because that is where we used to sleep.. is that normal? i enjoy sleeping on the couch now... I just want to feel ok again. Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted August 5, 2011 Share Posted August 5, 2011 I don't like going to eat at restaurants because we used to eat out for fun. It doesn't matter if we ever ate there or not, I just don't like it anymore. I believe you'll feel ok again. I believe I'll feel ok again. Sleeping on the couch is like camping out, just get a sleeping bag and some marshmallows. Link to post Share on other sites
TaintedHeart Posted August 5, 2011 Share Posted August 5, 2011 I feel your pain! You'll feel better before you know it, I promise! I wasn't able to sleep in my bed either and every morning was a battle, I felt sick and panicky, it was the worst feeling ever! I let myself go, I didn't shower or get dressed for days and I passed out because I wasn't able to eat. But now, only a couple weeks later I feel much better! Getting away helped me a lot, have you got any friends or family you could stay with? Maybe you could change your room around or treat yourslef to new sheets? Little changes tend to help. Stay strong Link to post Share on other sites
ScienceGal Posted August 6, 2011 Share Posted August 6, 2011 Tonight is one of those nights that I just don't want to go to bed alone. It's been a long day and I want to cuddle and talk. But, no such luck. I know I will probably dream of him too. I know I will wake up and he will be the first thing on my mind. I just want to feel ok too. I am so sick of being a prisoner to the past. But I know that everyday away from him is one day closer to meeting the man that deserves me. I know that one day I will be really happy again and in love. I know that I will not have to sleep alone every night. Link to post Share on other sites
shortee143 Posted August 9, 2011 Share Posted August 9, 2011 I cant tell ya how many times I too have said that "i just want to feel ok again"....ive been broken up from my ex 5 months, and not one day has passed where I dont think of him. A part of me is very much off since he broke up with me (and of course from all the terrible things he has done to me since we broke up) I STILL get the panicky feeling every so often. I just want to feel ok, like me again, and although one needs to be happy when single...there is also a level of happiness one feels when in love, that at least for me, cant be mimicked. I just still carry a lot of hurt- I wish I could just lift that weight right of me. The only insight I can offer is that in the course of the last 5 months, I do feel better. I see him often due to the same friends, he has a new girl- and it still kills....but baby steps to feeling as best as I can! It really is a process, but it has to get better, you know why?? Bc there is no other option hang in there Link to post Share on other sites
dicky_fish Posted August 9, 2011 Share Posted August 9, 2011 I think this is the worst part of it for all of us, we just want to be ourselves again. I was sobbing to my mum tonight about how much I just want to go back to being the happy person I was back in April, that I would do anything for the old me to be back again. He was a person I loved being, and had always been until the break up. It's one of the things I've started resenting her for, I was at my happiest when she was around, we'd built our future plans together and before I had chance to make my dreams come true she pulled them away. Even worse now is I know she is living the life we had planned and someone else is now in my place. Link to post Share on other sites
D-Lish Posted August 9, 2011 Share Posted August 9, 2011 Yes, everything you are feeling is normal. There is nothing worse than wanting so badly to feel okay, and know that it's going to take time. When my exH and I split, I used to sleep in our gazebo at night for a while. It will get better, and you will get over it. People are here to listen- and talking helps. Link to post Share on other sites
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