reimeivn Posted August 7, 2011 Share Posted August 7, 2011 I was feeling bad for a few days. I kept worrying about the ex getting a new gf, and I keep realizing more and more how ****ty the ex treated me. Tonight, however, I finished a freelance job, got some accomplishment, and I feel like I am opening up this new chapter in my life. To be honest, without him, it is going to be so much better. Nobody is going to make me cry anymore. And I ll have new friends. And have time for my classes. The worst thing is that the ex go to the same college with me, had a lot of mutual friends. But not my friends anymore, never were. Now I can be around the friends that make me really happy and enjoy the things I like. Next semester, it all gonna be different. And I am feeling it tonight. I hope you too will have some peaceful and hopeful nights like me. I do not know where you are in your life, but you can always move on, and leave the past in the past. Link to post Share on other sites
Thieves Posted August 7, 2011 Share Posted August 7, 2011 Glad to see that you're doing well, reimeivn. Today was a good day for me too, after a few 'down days'. I just hope it'll last long... Link to post Share on other sites
BrettLost Posted August 7, 2011 Share Posted August 7, 2011 Excellent stuff guys. I love reading about others getting past it all, even temporarily. Im guessin good day after good day will turn into good week etc. Seems as though circumstances eventually present brighter options for u to explore as in reimeivn's case. Also (for me) concentrating on your newfound freedom as an individual helps distract u from ur actual loss, kinda like what u lost was really dead weight anyway... kinda...? Link to post Share on other sites
Author reimeivn Posted August 7, 2011 Author Share Posted August 7, 2011 yeah well i guess the thing about me and my ex was, he added little values to my life, from the start. he was fun to be with. but i have been around the world, alone by myself, made some pretty tough decisions, and he just a little boy that loves to play video games. when i need him to man up and be with me through tough times, he totally did not. he was lying to me a lot, so its not like hes still the same person i love anymore. you know, i cant love somebody like that. so its like, its beyond my control that hes gone now. last night i was really sad for like 15 minutes, so i prayed. early this morning, my prayer was answered. i had this heart breaking feeling again after 2 months after realizing how easy it is for him to leave me. he must feel so relieved. but thats fine. i felt it, i got closer to the truth. you know, bottom line, he is not gonna be my husband anyways. i cant see it. he cant do it. he cant even be a good dad. so yeah i tell myself, it has to happen, sooner or later. Link to post Share on other sites
TheVSilent Posted August 7, 2011 Share Posted August 7, 2011 That's good news. I am entering a really dark time right now. Although months have passed, I have started to get panic attacks, and get really low on myself. I haven't met anybody since her, no new friends, and nothing to really motivate me to think that things will be ok. I am hoping this will all pass, I know I deserve all this pain for what I put her through. I hope you continue to feel better. This is the tougest thing I have ever been through, the month of May 2011 will always make me frown. Link to post Share on other sites
jeff2321 Posted August 7, 2011 Share Posted August 7, 2011 VSilent, Just know that there are others out there just like you gonig through the same dark time. For me, I simply just go to work and come home every day. I sit at home on the weekends and just watch movies. I took blankets and nailed them over my windows so that my apartment can have less light (helps with glare on my TV). I know at some point I will come out of my funk, but I am not sure when that is. I am getting better, but I am still quite a depressed and lost person. [ I have planned on selling just about everything I own except my TV, video games, and my cheap honda. Going to move into a cheap 1bdrm apartment for awhile and just be a hermit and save $$$. No relationships with women for a long time... ] Regret is one of the worst emotions to bare... you wish you could go back and change things but you can't. The past is the past so you simply just go through each day hurting and regreting. I hope some day I can get passed this... Just know that you aren't the only one going through massive regret and depression Jeff2321 Link to post Share on other sites
patagonia Posted August 7, 2011 Share Posted August 7, 2011 I was feeling bad for a few days. I kept worrying about the ex getting a new gf, and I keep realizing more and more how ****ty the ex treated me. Tonight, however, I finished a freelance job, got some accomplishment, and I feel like I am opening up this new chapter in my life. To be honest, without him, it is going to be so much better. Nobody is going to make me cry anymore. And I ll have new friends. And have time for my classes. The worst thing is that the ex go to the same college with me, had a lot of mutual friends. But not my friends anymore, never were. Now I can be around the friends that make me really happy and enjoy the things I like. Next semester, it all gonna be different. And I am feeling it tonight. I hope you too will have some peaceful and hopeful nights like me. I do not know where you are in your life, but you can always move on, and leave the past in the past. I'm glad to read that you are doing better! It is definitely a tough road but it sounds like you are one step closer. Hang in there. Good post. Link to post Share on other sites
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