DontWorryBHappy Posted August 7, 2011 Share Posted August 7, 2011 (edited) I'm having issues just accepting everything lately I guess. After my ex broke up with me, he asked to try again about a month and a half later. When he was asking, I should have said no based on the way he asked. He was like, "This might be a totally bad idea, but I'm being selfish because I really like you and want to try. I don't love you, but I like you a lot." Yeah, he said he didn't love me, he just "really liked me". Apparently this was due to him "not being able to love" but he said he "should" be able to love me in time. Awesome. Anyway, I was blinded by something and agreed anyway and after our first date during this "getting back together" period he asked if I could just be the person that he confides in and shares everything with, without me being his girlfriend. I was pretty upset at that suggestion and recall saying, "I want a relationship!" and he said "well, then you'll have one". And we continued trying to see each other. For that whole week (yes, only a week) that we tried to work things out I was a bit of a mess. I didn't know how to try a relationship with someone who used to say "I love you" every day and now was saying he didn't and just "liked" me. Every time I watched TV and some stupid romantic scene came on and one character said "I love you" I would break down and go over to my exes place saying that we needed to talk. My ex wasn't doing well with talking to me about anything serious (as he never did) and he actually requested that we talk about serious stuff "at the end of the week". Obviously this whole thing didn't work out. Obviously there were a million red flags. So why do I still want to place some kind of blame on myself? I delude myself sometimes, thinking to myself, "If you hadn't tried to have so many serious conversations during that week, maybe it would have worked out!".... but that is obviously not true.... right? I mean, he gave me every indication that he wasn't all the way in it from the start.... right? And if a guy really wanted to get a girl back, he wouldn't run away after a week just because things aren't immediately all happy and dandy... right? In the end, he had told me he left again because of his issues... not because of me. Maybe I just don't want to believe/accept the way this is, so I keep questioning everything... Edited August 7, 2011 by DontWorryBHappy Link to post Share on other sites
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