dreams19 Posted August 9, 2011 Share Posted August 9, 2011 Hi I am new here. I just wanted to get some opinions. 12 years ago I met the guy who I lost my virginity to and was my first love. We dated for 2 years. He broke up with me. I was devastated. We were both 20 at the time. He went and sowed his oats and I cried for the next year over him. For the last two years of college he never really left me alone. He would date other women and when it was over, he would come back to me. This went on, until we graduated, I confessed to him the night before graduating how much he hurt me over the years and he said he was sorry. That was that, thinking I will be moving back home and will never hear from him again. Fast forward- I moved to FL, and lived there for 4 years, in between dating other men and I lost my parents too. I am now 31 years old, living back where the ex is from. The whole 4 years that I was away from him he had other loves, relationships, but he always would talk to me via email or IM. He never really ever "left". So now I live 15 mins away from him, we had a reunion about 2 years ago, it was so intense and emotional we decided it wouldn't work, I was the typical girl thinking, he came back and he was the guy thinking this will never work if it didn't work before, so again we went our separate ways. Recently we have started communicating again. I broke up with my boyfriend of a year and he hasn't been with anyone for awhile. We just started to have sex again, and although I am sure neither of us wants to admit it, sex is amazing, emotional and fulfilling between us. Now it has been 11 years and it honestly is better then anyone I have EVER slept with before. He def makes it all about me, and spends time talking and joking about life afterwards. My question is: Am I joking myself that he may still have feelings for me, maybe even love me???? How do I know it isnt just about sex???? I will say this, I have and always will care and love him. Link to post Share on other sites
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