alexa137 Posted August 15, 2011 Share Posted August 15, 2011 ive been sad and depressed for years and just wonder when will i be happy? my life sucks,i mean really sucks! ive been unemployed for 2 yrs, cant find a good man, im broke, just had another bad breakup and my friends are really too busy to hang out. I honestly dont have nothing positive in my life. I feel worthless and not good enough. I dont have much desire to do anything, but sleep eat and be on the internet.I can really go anywhere but the grocery store once a week because no money. I see my friend maybe once a week, but shes so busy with a baby and 3 kids and sports and job etc,, that we dont go out and have fun. and my other good friends work alot and lives out of town, The town i live in is small, and I dont associate with too many people just because everybody knows everybody and is in your business etc. I constantly have a headache because im so stressed and from crying and wondering if im being punished. I pray every night that God will give me something good soon. I will be 41 in october and I feel like a failure. I dont know what to do anymore, Im going crazy Link to post Share on other sites
D-Lish Posted August 15, 2011 Share Posted August 15, 2011 I have been where you are at more than once in my life and I'm the same age as you. I remember rare times in my life where I was ever truly happy. I think it has a lot to do with being alone. I often feel lonely and that contributes to my depression. Have you ever spoken to someone about your depression. Link to post Share on other sites
Author alexa137 Posted August 15, 2011 Author Share Posted August 15, 2011 yes the biggest burden is being alone, which i have been for most of my adult life, only been in 2 relationships 1989-1991 and then 2006-2007 i did see a counselor after the last breakup because i was devastated! i was pregnant and his 16 yr other gf was pregnant too! of course with stress i had a miscarriage and then we broke up im trying not to go the counselor way again because it doesnt really help, i mean they cant give you too much advice and all i do is cry, because i am a very emotional person. so why waste my time gas and money to talk to someone and cry when i can just talk to my friends or on here for free and cry anyways my family doctor says i have severe depression and i told her to give me a month before prescribing me any meds or making any mental health appts. Link to post Share on other sites
D-Lish Posted August 15, 2011 Share Posted August 15, 2011 I just went back on meds after recently (like you) having a miscarriage and then being dumped right after. That was five months ago and my depression and anxiety became so severe that I needed to do something about it. I've been on them for a few weeks but I don't feel any different yet. If you're feeling really bad, there is no shame in getting back on meds, and since they take up to 6 weeks to work, maybe waiting a month is too long? Link to post Share on other sites
Author alexa137 Posted August 15, 2011 Author Share Posted August 15, 2011 no i really didnt want to because my dr finally put me on weight loss meds, phetermine, after trying for years to lose weight, and im afriad they might mess things up Link to post Share on other sites
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