Denillad Posted August 20, 2011 Share Posted August 20, 2011 (edited) Its been awhile since i last posted on the forum. My ex n I broke up over two years ago. We remained in contact and it has been hell for me. I felt like ive not been able to really let go. For along time i was still in love with this guy, he has lied, manipulated, used me for sex, given me crumbs over n over but i havent been able move on. We have been nc since january of this year. He had messaged me a few times with crumbs over last few months and i finally gave in about two weeks ago. After a few exchanges all he wanted was to talk about sex. Then nothing for over a week. The cycle began, of me messaging him and more of his crumbs. Obviously he is still with the girl he left the marriage for. I dont want him back after all this hurt but im still hurt that he walked away from me when i wanted to work things out, that he would lie to me, i dont know the extent of his lies. I just dont see the same man, that wanted nothing more than to be with me, the one that said i meant the world to him. Never in a million years would i have imagined that he would be like this. Whatever happened is already done. I just havent been able move pass the hurt and dissappointment. I still dont understand how he was able to walk away and move on so soon after our breakup and im here stuck on him. I question what ever really knew about him. Everyone thought he loved me more than i loved him and wondered why he never tried to work things out. I just need some encouragement as i start nc all over again. I wish i didnt break it. Edited August 20, 2011 by Denillad Link to post Share on other sites
1Dunno Posted August 20, 2011 Share Posted August 20, 2011 You deserve better than him and you know it. You deserve better to be used for sex in the vague hope on your behalf that it may be more than that. I assume you don't have any real reason to be in contact with him (i.e. no kids)?. If so then you have to make it impossible to contact him and for him to contact you. You need to change your mobile number and delete his number from your phone. Block his email. Literally disappear from the face of his existence. Hurts like hell and takes some serious kahunas to do it, but then, and only then, will you truly be able to move forward with your life. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Denillad Posted August 20, 2011 Author Share Posted August 20, 2011 Thanks for sharing. I did change my cell number and it so hard but i would call him since then. Now is to block the email and not engage in any conversation about. I will do this, i need to do it for me. Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted August 20, 2011 Share Posted August 20, 2011 We are all struggling as you struggle. If I can maintain NC for as long as I have, you can, too. Fight the temptation, and put him in the past. The future is waiting. Link to post Share on other sites
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