It never really gets better you just learn to live with it

[willowthewisp]

Two and a half years on, I have achieved a law degree and legal practice, I have a job...

 

I have reached indifference towards my ex.

 

I am unhappy, desperately unhappy.

[itllgetbetter]

Congratulations on the law degree & the legal practice!!

 

I'm so sorry that you're that unhappy - I've read some of your posts and you seem to have a good attitude generally. Please feel better soon.

 

Do you go to court much as counsel? That's a good way to meet people, especially if doing motions. I know a couple that met when they were opposing counsel on a trial - however, they hooked up while they were M to other people, both left their spouses and are living together - so, that's not a great example, but, if you stick to the unmarried lawyers, you never know ...

 

How do you feel about in-person support groups? I'm not sure whether or not it's a good idea to join one since I thought perhaps it might allow one to focus more than I should on the current situation. However, it might be a good idea to join one - at least for the interaction with other people in a similar situation (to state the obvious).

 

Again, I hope you feel better soon.

[tojaz]

Willow, theres a lot of truth to that title. I don't fully believe that it doesn't get better, but i do believe that the wounds caused by this never really heal. There will always be the reminders, the hurt and a certain amount of unhappiness.

 

Sometimes moving forward with your life stirs the muck up from the bottom all over again. I found myself seeing that in my self lately, a break up in a new relationship set me back to reminiscing of when life was easier, a promotion at work that i had worked hard for lost its luster when I reminded myself that I was rushing home to celebrate alone.

 

Its degrees of happy Willow, your certainly happier then you were 2 years ago, and two years from now you will be happier still. We can't achieve what was taken from us and that will always leave a small missing piece, but we learn to live, we eventually learn to find a new kind of happiness and we move forward.

 

Lots of people out there don't get it, but this isn't something you "get over" its something you survive.

 

TOJAZ

[willowthewisp]

Thanks for the reply.

 

No I don't go to court, the job I have is at the bottom of the rung, I am not qualified yet, this job will get me the experience to get the job that will let me qualify, hopefully anyway.

 

I work for a small firm and I sit in a room all day doing paperwork so I don't meet or speak to anyone at work, I eat lunch alone also.

 

There aren't any support groups in my area, I checked many times when this all happened two and half years ago and again recently, we don't seem to have them in the UK.

 

I do go out with friends on weekends but I am going to have to move nearer to work soon and I don't know anyone in that city, although I may still be able to come back here weekends sometimes.

 

Life is extremely lonely. I tried joining clubs, new hobbies, making new friends etc but most people my age are married with young children and younger people do not seem to want to know me or have me around them, go out with them.

 

I meet a guy I liked recently who is going through his own divorce, but now he has gone all quiet and weird on me, not sure what I did wrong.

 

I would just like to meet someone...I donot understand what is so wrong with me that I am completely unlovable.

[itllgetbetter]

Willow, I've just read your background from the thread "tough words to hear". I understand from that that you went through 18 mths of IC but reached a point where you no longer blamed yourself for what was done to you.

 

Do you know anything about the OW, other than she cheated with your fiancee (hope I got that right)? Part of a phrase I read on this site is "cheaters cheat down". I know in my H's case, that's soooo correct. Someone told me the other day that I should always keep in mind that H's the one at fault (ie., 2 wrongs don't make a right if they blamed you for situation they got themselves in to) and this woman doesn't begin to compare to me (her background is in my thread).

 

Have you read any books by Maeve Binchy? They're light fiction - very good - I recommend starting with Tara Road - it might get your mind off things for a bit.

 

As for the title to this thread, I don't think it's always true. I posted elsewhere on this site that I know of a woman who's H cheated on her 7 years into M. She left him, found a job as a travel agent, and has been happily M for over 20 years to a man who came into the store as a customer. I've known the couple for a few years (friends of my parents) and was always struck by how happy they are. It was only a couple of months ago that I learned about her first M. And, when I learned of her first M, and saw how happy she now is, I thought that as unfortunate as my current situation is, perhaps I'll be as fortunate as this couple was.

 

Since you're a lawyer, you're obviously busy. What about joining a bar association? This reminds me of a woman I know who's H cheated on her. She's now M to a fantastic man who she met at a professional conference. I also know of a guy who met his wife in an elevator. I know of another guy who met his wife on a train. To summarize, you can meet a future mate in an unexpected way.

 

You're not "completely unloveable" as you put it. Otherwise, you'd be friendless, and that's not the case. What about going to church, or, some other religious organization? They usually have singles groups, coffee after the sermon, etc.

 

But you need to be careful when the time comes that someone isn't wanting to date you because you're a lawyer/almost qualified.

 

In response to your issue with the guy you were interested in who's going through a D, I haven't decided on whether, when the time comes, to date someone who's D or not. I say that because, on the one hand, if you hook up with someone who's been through a similar situation, they'd have some understanding of what you've gone through (al la Shania Twain's 2nd M to the BS of the W her H cheated on her with).

 

Although friends/family see how upsetting this is for you, unless they've been through it themselves, they don't fully appreciate the situation. For example, I've known people (no one close to me though) who've gotten D and recall thinking it was too bad - but that was the extent of it.

 

On the other hand, dating someone who hasn't been through a similar circumstance might mean there's less "muck" to deal with. Any thoughts on this? And the statistic that 50% of M's fail - I'm beginning to wonder if that's true - next time you're out, take a look at men's ring finger - it seems that at least 80% are M. That's depressing!

[coolheadal]

Why don't you take some time off and leave the country and travel to Hawaii or one of the other islands around the world. Go see what's your missing. Take 3 weeks off if you can or longer. This way you can forget your past and met new people and don't talk about your ex bla, bla.. Doesn't help you and most want to know about you. Who you are and what makes you so different. Be happy again this is what I am going to do soon. Thinking about the sw will drive me crazy. I am not unhappy I try to think about other things or buy stuff I don't really need. But what ever works I keep busy.

 

Take care and remember you're not alone you have friends here who care about you!

[YSS]

Willow

Congrats on the job. It may not be the dream position at the moment, but you were so worried that you would not find employment and you did quickly. Congrats

 

I think topaz (as always) offered some profound insight. Somethings in life we just learn to live with and survive. You have found indifference towards your ex and that to me is "getting over". I envy that cause almost two years post break up and year of therapy, I am far from indifferent.

 

I know you want to find someone to share your life with and get on with living life. You will get there willow. When will he show up is unknown. But given you are open and seeking, it will come.

[2.50 a gallon]

My friend Willow

 

It has been a hard and long journey.

 

I know you can't see it from where you stand, but you are making great progress.

 

Not only did you survive 30 months of living in a hellish environment, but you excelled in getting a degree in a intelectually challenging subject. Take pride that you now have gotten two steps of recovery out of the way. The two steps being getting your degree and getting a job.

 

The next step is to get a place of you own and let the real Willow emerge.

 

I know you are going to hate hearing this, but it takes time. Having been through it myself, trust me when I say that I know what I am talking about.

 

I too went through episodes, wondering why love had left me behind. Wondering why I am not good enough. Wondering is there someone out there for me and if there is, why is she so hard to find.

 

One event I distinctly remember is watching a gloriously colorful sunset, and feeling totally devastated that I was alone and not having that someone special with me to share it with

 

The truth is I was not ready. At the moment I would have given almost any and everything just to have had somebody to share it with. It was then that I realized that I had a problem. I needed to learn to be more selective.

 

I was ready to jump into almost any relationship just to ease the pain of lonelines. And chances are that would have been an even bigger mistake, as surely I would have walked down the same path of my ruined marriage.

 

Trust me, when you are ready it will happen when you least expect it. And it will happen. You are more than a survivor, you are a winner.

[worlybear]

Listen up, Willow, we all care for you.

Hugs,hugs and more hugs.:bunny:

[LifesontheUp]

My friend Willow

 

It has been a hard and long journey.

 

I know you can't see it from where you stand, but you are making great progress.

 

Not only did you survive 30 months of living in a hellish environment, but you excelled in getting a degree in a intelectually challenging subject. Take pride that you now have gotten two steps of recovery out of the way. The two steps being getting your degree and getting a job.

 

The next step is to get a place of you own and let the real Willow emerge.

 

I know you are going to hate hearing this, but it takes time. Having been through it myself, trust me when I say that I know what I am talking about.

 

I too went through episodes, wondering why love had left me behind. Wondering why I am not good enough. Wondering is there someone out there for me and if there is, why is she so hard to find.

 

One event I distinctly remember is watching a gloriously colorful sunset, and feeling totally devastated that I was alone and not having that someone special with me to share it with

 

The truth is I was not ready. At the moment I would have given almost any and everything just to have had somebody to share it with. It was then that I realized that I had a problem. I needed to learn to be more selective.

 

I was ready to jump into almost any relationship just to ease the pain of lonelines. And chances are that would have been an even bigger mistake, as surely I would have walked down the same path of my ruined marriage.

 

Trust me, when you are ready it will happen when you least expect it. And it will happen. You are more than a survivor, you are a winner.

 

^^^^ excellent post. Willow read and re-read, it is my experience too.

 

Congrats on your degree and legal practice - that is such a fantastic accomplishment

[willowthewisp]

Thank you for the replies.

 

Itllgetbetter - I think you maybe have me confused with someone else? I do not have a thread called "Tough words to hear".

 

Coolheadal - I cannot take any time off as I only started the job a few weeks ago.

 

Gallon - Thank you and I know in many respects that you are right I am moving forward slowly. I think part of the reason I am so down is that I once was very happy, before all this was done to me and my home that I had and now I am having to look at grotty houseshares because I do not earn enough to live in a nice place of my own. It grates on me that he is still living in my home with "her" with my furniture, my things and I am working my a** off to get my own place and STILL cannot afford it.

 

I don't think that I am not ready for a relationship though. I have been asked out a couple of times by a couple of guys and have said no to both as one is currently divorcing and is most likely on rebound (hence why he has gone quiet on me I think) and the other is not my type at all. I have also dated two guys both of whom I turned down a relationship with, both for very good reasons which I don't think it would be right to talk about on a public forum.

 

I just do not seem to meet anyone, anyone I am attracted to, I look down and low and behold...wedding ring. I really do want to find someone to share my life with, it is proving impossible and even though I have tried giving up looking now for about the last 3 months, I haven't met anyone so I guess he doesn't always turn up when you least expect it.

 

Tojaz - thanks a lot of sense in your words.

[trippi1432]

Willow - You know that you are not unlovable, and that guy just wasn't the right guy. Who knows when the right one will come along...heck, even when the right one comes along...you may not even be ready for it.

 

We take life one step at a time, finding happiness as we go along...perhaps the move will open things up for you to find that. While we wish that things could go much faster to get back to what we feel we are missing in our life, that is not always the best thing for us either.

 

Take your time, be selective and don't settle. You have come through the hardest parts and come so far over these 2 and a half years.

 

Congrats on the job!

[willowthewisp]

Update - Total rejection

 

So I asked the guy outright if he was still interested after he told me a few weeks back that he was and got knocked back. It's the first time I have ever asked a guy if he is interetsed and I get rejected, I don't think i will be doing it again!

 

Part of me is really hurt but part of me is really p*****. I mean this guy tells me he likes me, texts for weeks on end, keeps asking me to go out for meals, drinks etc and all the while i say no bc he is recently seperated from his wife and then he goes all quiet on me. I asked if I did something, he said no. I run into him and so I finally text and ask him outright if he is still interested only to get rejected. What is it with people? Was i just some kind of rebound ego boost for this guy? Or did I do something to turn him off, am I just unlovable?

 

Life really does suck, the title of this thread still stands, you never really get over a divorce, being left by a walk away or an adulteer, you just learn to live with it and move through each day.

 

Is it worth it? I really don't know some days why I keep trying to survive. People keep saying it will get better and I will meet someone and move on but it isn't happening.....it's not going to is it?

[tojaz]

Update - Total rejection

 

So I asked the guy outright if he was still interested after he told me a few weeks back that he was and got knocked back. It's the first time I have ever asked a guy if he is interetsed and I get rejected, I don't think i will be doing it again!

 

Part of me is really hurt but part of me is really p*****. I mean this guy tells me he likes me, texts for weeks on end, keeps asking me to go out for meals, drinks etc and all the while i say no bc he is recently seperated from his wife and then he goes all quiet on me. I asked if I did something, he said no. I run into him and so I finally text and ask him outright if he is still interested only to get rejected. What is it with people? Was i just some kind of rebound ego boost for this guy? Or did I do something to turn him off, am I just unlovable?

 

Life really does suck, the title of this thread still stands, you never really get over a divorce, being left by a walk away or an adulteer, you just learn to live with it and move through each day.

 

Is it worth it? I really don't know some days why I keep trying to survive. People keep saying it will get better and I will meet someone and move on but it isn't happening.....it's not going to is it?

 

It will Willow, but we have to walk through a lot of s**t to get there. I think its harder for the victim (yeah I said victim!) of a walk away spouse because they had reached a point where they thought they wouldn't have to deal with all the games of the dating world, after spending all those years in a LTR your just not ready for all the weirdos and bad eggs out there, you never would have dreamed you'd have to be. Heck I went on a "date" last week that now I'm not even sure was a date!!!!!:eek: you want to talk about confusion!!!!!

 

Hes one guy out of millions Willow, and hes missing out big time!

TOJAZ

[trippi1432]

Willow - There's this age old saying that I recall hearing called "getting your ducks in a row" and that is what happens when you start over....it's what you have been doing for these two and a half years with college, now hunting for a place to live....and I will say this, with the utmost respect to how you feel about finding someone....right now, an emotionally needy and clingy man going through a divorce is the LAST thing you need. From your other posts, you informed him up front that you didn't want to be a rebound....from his position, perhaps he is being honest and respecting that or feels that he knows at this time he isn't in the best place to be with you.

 

This guy did you a favor, as you do not want to find yourself in the same situation as you were with your ex, find out after you have invested yourself in him that he was on a rebound or that he is CP or emotionally unavailable. None of us expect to be where we are at, but it's how we survive what was dealt to us that will attract the right kind of people to our life. We all take chances and put ourselves out there, so the timing wasn't right this time...no worries...eventually it will be once you are sorted.

 

How is the house hunting going? I bet once you spread your wings and get on your own and get sorted, you will find a lot of new opportunities and freedom that you never had before. Who says you HAVE to meet someone to MOVE ON...moving on is within you...not dependent on anyone other than you. That ability to be independent and happy is more attractive to healthy minded men than you know.

 

The dating world is crazy, that is for sure....but when we get ourselves sorted, it's good when you can attract the right kind of guy into your life. I found this out and have been seeing a wonderful man for the past 6 weeks (ironically I met him the same week my exH got married....karma perhaps?). But he doesn't define my happiness, nor I define his...we just enjoy spending our time together...in that, we have balance.

[Seraph1]

 

Heck I went on a "date" last week that now I'm not even sure was a date!!!!!:eek: you want to talk about confusion!!!!!

 

Hes one guy out of millions Willow, and hes missing out big time!

 

 

Heck if you want dating disasters I could tell you so many that you'd either laugh or cry! Take last night... guy was all sweet and attentive and we finally go for dinner. I order an entre and iced tea, he orders a full on steak and lobster and a $23 half-glass of wine. I'm full, he orders desert... when it comes time to pay he says 'let's go halves...'

 

I just look at him, pull out a $50 which is about $25 MORE than what my entire meal and drink cost... AND HE TAKES IT! :lmao: He then has the cheek to ask ME to call him to arrange another DATE! :lmao:

 

I like rejection straight away! Means I'm not paying for some assh*le's meal!

 

Things do get better though. It's about peaks and troughs. You are not unloveable. Not by a long shot. I've met the unloveable! They live in my city and are generally men that ask me out! I know it is hard to stay positive when you are faced with such 'frogs' but I look around this forum and see such lovely people...and I know that there are good people out there. I just need to keep putting in the effort and not give up searching.

[Steadfast]

Like the others willow, I've seen amazing progress in your personal life. I recall reading about you cramming for tests under the thumb of a nipple-twisting mother while having back spasms. As I recall, you didn't think you'd pass. You did. You posted the frustration of being heartsick yet incredibly angry at your ex but you've lived through it all and yes, even prospered. Your posts to others in pain are caring, intelligent and sensitive. I wish your posts regarding willow had the same warmth and tenderness.

 

You feel you deserve better, and you do. Crazy as it sounds, you're better off now than you were even in the height of co-habitation. Why? Because happy as you were, his flawed devotion was dooming the relationship. You love...or loved him. We join you in that. You post of the unfairness around your former home, his relationship there and your toiling. You have a right.

 

I used to think otherwise, but now firmly believe that most people aren't happy unless they're in a relationship. So what? That's no crime. We are not designed to be alone. Blessings like connecting with someone, being cared about, sexual pleasure and a loving commitment are the things our labor is designed to support. Don't feel bad about feeling bad! You are a smart lady...and others here have clearly pointed out that The One just hasn't arrived in your life yet. Will he? I believe yes, he will. But like I've written many times before, messing with the time table will sour the treasures it holds. It's fate, opportunity and patience all rolled up together.

"The faithful will abound with blessings, but he who makes haste to be rich will not go unpunished." Proverbs 28: 20-21

 

Sometimes moving forward with your life stirs the muck up from the bottom all over again.

 

tojaz, you are a soothsayer! I'm in the process of moving, and the amount of 'baggage' I've had to sort through has stirred up a TON of old feelings. A sixteen-year accumulation/reminder of every child's birthday, anniversary's, holiday garbage and love notes from long ago. I could not have handled this even a year ago, but I can now. Barely. Three years past. I loved that girl...love her still. In the end, that's all it ever was.

 

We're still there willow, just as we always were. They left. We can't stop it. Our options exist, our decisions ours but our paths open to speculation.

[itllgetbetter]

Re Steadfast's: "The faithful will abound with blessings, but he who makes haste to be rich will not go unpunished." Proverbs 28: 20-21 - good post. My mom's repeatedly mentioned David & Bathsheba.

 

Any more uplifting verses Steadfast?

[Lucid1]

Willow,

 

Right there with you. Today would be my 14th wedding anniversary if I was still married. Divorce was final in May, the marriage was over two years ago. Still feels like a razor blade deep in my soul.

I've tried a few things to kill the pain and this week heard these song lyrics:

 

"What ya gonna do when the whiskey ain't working anymore?"

 

And that's about where I am now. It ain't working. Now I have no choice but to look it right in the eye.

 

This sucks in ways I'm still learning about. Like: we have to keep up with each other's schedules for visitation, so I get and send more emails with her than anyone else when what I want to do is forget she even exists. And I've gotta do this for eleven more years until our son is 18? What kind of sadistic psychopathic monster could even come up with that kind of torture? How did I/we get into this position? And what did I/we do to deserve this? I loved the same woman for twenty years. I thought that was supposed to be a good thing. Sigh.

 

But even through the dark glass I can see I am healing. Humans do that even when we don't think we ever can. So will you. We'll heal with scar tissue, not smooth skin, but at least the wound will close. The scar will be our memory, never going away completely, but eventually mostly forgotten. We'll learn to live with it.

 

Good luck!

Edited August 30, 2011 by Lucid1

[just_some_guy]

Yes, it can get better. You do learn to live with it. Or more hopefully, live by learning from it.

 

It works from the inside out. It really, really does. Give healing the time it needs. But work hard and seek to find the self acceptance, contentment and love within yourself. Heal those long-term, deep wounds that started before the relationship.

 

I hope for the best for you, sincerely.

[trippi1432]

I think its harder for the victim (yeah I said victim!) of a walk away spouse because they had reached a point where they thought they wouldn't have to deal with all the games of the dating world, after spending all those years in a LTR your just not ready for all the weirdos and bad eggs out there, you never would have dreamed you'd have to be.

 

That is a sad place to be or feel you are in actually...last week you were a survivor..this week victim. We do survive what was dealt us..and what we put out there in this new world is what we get back.

 

Two years ago I came to this forum in the process of getting a divorce...not knowing how I attracted the messed up man in my life for 15 years that I did, but I know now...some will recall I claimed that my people picker was off. It was...I won't deny it...few options and I settled. But we come from a life we once knew to the life we have now..not by our choice but by someone's choosing.

 

We can look back and continue to be victims or we can do better than what was dealt to us and move forward. It's ultimately our choice.

 

I like rejection straight away! Means I'm not paying for some assh*le's meal!

 

Things do get better though. It's about peaks and troughs. You are not unloveable. Not by a long shot. I've met the unloveable! They live in my city and are generally men that ask me out! I know it is hard to stay positive when you are faced with such 'frogs' but I look around this forum and see such lovely people...and I know that there are good people out there. I just need to keep putting in the effort and not give up searching.

 

Seraph - You have my sympathies..yeah...had that too...love the look on their face as I walk out the door..."You do know how to run the dishwasher right?".

Edited August 31, 2011 by trippi1432

[tojaz]

That is a sad place to be or feel you are in actually...last week you were a survivor..this week victim. We do survive what was dealt us..and what we put out there in this new world is what we get back.

 

 

It can be a sad place to be, but there is a big difference between playing victim and being one. Willow is a survivor but i feel its important to remind her that she is a victim of her situation. She did nothing to put herself in the place shes in now, its not because she is unworthy or unloveable and that is something she needs to remember.

 

 

tojaz, you are a soothsayer! I'm in the process of moving, and the amount of 'baggage' I've had to sort through has stirred up a TON of old feelings. A sixteen-year accumulation/reminder of every child's birthday, anniversary's, holiday garbage and love notes from long ago. I could not have handled this even a year ago, but I can now. Barely. Three years past. I loved that girl...love her still. In the end, that's all it ever was.

 

I don't think there will ever be a time when the reminders won't dredge up some old feelings, to be honest and as strange as it may sound, i hope there never is. There are many areas of my life that have ended badly, but that doesn't make them any less a part.

 

TOJAZ

[willowthewisp]

Thanks for all the replies, I'm sorry I haven't posted sooner it's because I honest;y do not know how best to express what it is that I am feeling.

 

I'm really fed up. Life just isn't getting better in terms of finding a relationship. I am starting to think that I am going to be alone for the rest of my life now.

 

I went out last night and it seems the reason I was rejected my the guy who had said he liked me, is because he is seeing someone. In fact, he started seeing her, right when he went all quiet on me, funny huh? I guess some people are rebounding all over the place that will be happy to go out with anyone who will have them. I asked him why he didn't just tell me about him and her (I know her too) and he said he felt awkard! I felt like saying "well, cheers then, you let me go ahead and make a fool of myself instead" what I actually said was "well, if you had just of said, I would have left yo alone". What a t***.

 

I got told last night by a guy that I am "right tidy...fit" and two other guys I know feom highschool were telling me how attractive I am and how I have aged the best out of all the women there etc. I asked them then, "why is it then that I never get asked out?" They were very shocked. They both have girlfriends, so it's not like they were coming on to me by saying this stuff. So why is it? Were these guys just being complimentary for no reason, am I butt ugly and they were just trying to give me a boost? They bought it up, not me. I just do not get it. No one appraoched me last night, I smiled at guys, tried to look inviting, friendly etc and nothing.

 

No one wants me and I cannot figure out why. I mean even the guy I liked is seeing someone who, without wanting to sound egotisitical, is musvh less of a catch than me, she has TONS of baggage that I do not have.

 

I used to think otherwise, but now firmly believe that most people aren't happy unless they're in a relationship. So what? That's no crime. We are not designed to be alone. Blessings like connecting with someone, being cared about, sexual pleasure and a loving commitment are the things our labor is designed to support. Don't feel bad about feeling bad! You are a smart lady...and others here have clearly pointed out that The One just hasn't arrived in your life yet. Will he? I believe yes, he will. But like I've written many times before, messing with the time table will sour the treasures it holds. It's fate, opportunity and patience all rolled up together.

 

"The faithful will abound with blessings, but he who makes haste to be rich will not go unpunished." Proverbs 28: 20-21

 

 

 

Steadfast, I really appreciated your post, you put it so much better than I ever could. No, I do not like being single. I feel lonely, unloved and uncared for. For two decades of my life, my whole adult life I was with the man I loved and loved being with him. I am OK by myself, but it is not what I would like for myself. It feels unatural to me for me to be single. I am not used to it and nor do I want to be. This doesn't mean that I would settle for anyone, for someone who is not worthy of the person that I am, but I do want to meet someone whom I can share my life with.

 

How is it that people can find other people so easily, so quickly? Even people who have affairs, have found someone to cheat with! Not that I am saying I would want a cheater! My point is, why is it I cannot find someone? What is so wrong with me that no one wants me? Or what I am doing or not doing right?

[Jamone]

Willow. What you're feeling right now is exactly how i feel...unloved, lonely, insecure. Thinking that noone will want you. I'm not in a position to really offer any advice because now i'm emotionally fragile BUT i have been given an opportunity on here to get my feelings out and have been given lots of advice and encouragement. Like you i left my house and am sleeping on a friend's sofa because i can't afford a flat and can't seem to save anything.

 

I just want you to know that you are not alone and there are many ppl in the same shoes as you even though they make out everything's fine. Especially in the UK we are very good at putting on faces to hide our feelings. I'm not going to tell you to be strong because it's very hard to be strong in all this but be encouraged. LS is here for you.

[Jamone]

P.S Congrats on the degree.