Diatribes Posted August 24, 2011 Share Posted August 24, 2011 Today is the 2nd week of NC since my ex left 5 weeks ago. And while I can think back and look at her words and actions that caused so much hurt, I still miss her and think of her just as much as I did the day she left. I'm pretty steadfast about NC, but I have to admit I've been using it as a tool to make her miss me. I've always had it in the back of my head she'd come back and want to reconcile. I don't think she's going to be doing that though, which just makes me sad that I probably won't ever see her or hold her in my arms again. I've even been with other women since she left. Some of them a lot better looking than my ex. She'd be jealous for sure. But they aren't "her" which has always left me with a emptiness. I'll remain in NC with her. Nothing would be accomplished by me trying to contact her except make me feel worse. Ultimately, I feel like a fool for letting her preoccupy my thoughts and emotions like she does. Link to post Share on other sites
JB93 Posted August 24, 2011 Share Posted August 24, 2011 SAME BOAT man. mine 9 days ago. I too am going NC and secretly hope she finds out that she made a big mistake. O well, you do what you gotta. Link to post Share on other sites
solobeary Posted August 24, 2011 Share Posted August 24, 2011 Yeah, I've got to admit I find the "this is the best way to make them realise what they've lost" aspect of no contact very motivating, even though everyone says (rightly so) that NC should be for you not them. But if those thoughts can get me through the first month or two, that's better than caving and going through all the hurt again, I think. I hope in a few months time I will almost totally be doing it for me. Link to post Share on other sites
Rorschach64 Posted August 24, 2011 Share Posted August 24, 2011 Been 1~2 months NC, can't even remember properly, I hope every day that she realises she made a mistake and will come back. Alas, it is not so and just a fool's dream. It is funny though in my situation that I am trying to date now and I seem to keep on luring in the same ethnicity/religion type as my ex! *shrug* They still aren't her. Link to post Share on other sites
ConfusedT Posted August 24, 2011 Share Posted August 24, 2011 I think its been around a week of NC or so for me. I broke it because i found a picture of him in MY CAR with another female, sigh.. anyways! congrats for staying strong!!! but dont continue to use it for the wrong reason! do it for yourself and to heal! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Diatribes Posted August 25, 2011 Author Share Posted August 25, 2011 I'm done waiting for this b*tch to come back. I have plenty of reasons to resent her anyways. I'm more inclined to wish her a sh*tty life, without me. The b*tch kind of f*cked me over, so why should I want to be with her anyways? Good riddance to bad people. She'll get hers, karma is a b*tch. Although, I'm just vengeful and bitter enough to play her a$$ if she does ever come whining back. I would actually get some joy out of that. Use her to the fullest then kick her to the curb when I was weary of her lame a$$. Besides, I know I can do far better as far as looks or personality. It just sucks for me that I got played this way. It's never happened to me before, so that's why I think I've had such a hard time coping with this. Cest la vie. Live and learn. Life is too short to spend it on hoping for something that will probably never happen and is just a fairy tale. F*ck her and her twin she rode in on. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Diatribes Posted August 25, 2011 Author Share Posted August 25, 2011 I just deleted her contact from my phone and email. Didn't see myself doing this, as I wasn't sure if I wanted to contact her in the future. I'm sticking to my guns, but I really don't want anything to do with that vile creature. Link to post Share on other sites
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