Ups and downs

[Lonelystar]

Lately I have been going through ups and downs. It has been 4months since my bf told me he "didn't love me anymore" and that he was going through family problems and such. I feel so alone, and so worthless. I feel ugly, and I can't seem to get my confidence back. I trusted him with everything, but he just stopped caring. He claimed to have loved me when were together, but how can you just wake up out of love? Well, I haven't contacted him in a week, even though I am so tempted too. I told him I didn't want to talk to him, but I regret this decesion at times. I just wish he would pick up the phone and tell me that he was wrong.

 

Sorry.. I just needed to get this out.

[hurtingandconfused]

I feel ugly, and I can't seem to get my confidence back.

 

Hrmmm you sure?? What did you try doing?

 

He claimed to have loved me when were together, but how can you just wake up out of love?

 

Blah Blah Blah...forget about it. It's all in the past...begin to focus on yourself.

 

I haven't contacted him in a week, even though I am so tempted too.

 

Don't even try it!

 

I told him I didn't want to talk to him, but I regret this decesion at times.

 

Don't regret it...you did yourself a favor. You are one step closer.

 

I just wish he would pick up the phone and tell me that he was wrong.

 

I wish that I could buy the right lottery ticket and hit the jackpot. It probably will never happen...but yet I still hope I do. It's there but I know that I'll never get. I might get a dollar or 2 but that's just a tease. That's why I choose not to play it. The more I play it the more I lose.

 

Same goes with your ex. It will proabably happen but don't count on it.

[Lonelystar]

Yeah I know. I deserve better anyways. I guess the reason whY i want him so much is because he called it off. I hate my pride, and feeling like this.