Im at war with my heart

[Rockyb87]

And my heart is winning : (

 

For the past few days Ive been thinking about my ex non stop. Idk y i told myself whats done is done and there is no going back, but still my heart is hoping and the grace of god that she will come back and everything will be the way it was b4. I miss her so much, but I know its not whats best for me, she did me wrong and i dont deserve that, i deserve better. I put so much love into the relationship and towards the end this is wat its got me, no where. Idk guess im just weird. Dont get me wrong, Ive been on dates, go on out with friends, worked out, and kept myself busy but still i feel like something is missing and its cliche but its her, yea i know pathetic. Shes moved on obviously and is with someone the last time i checked her fb, btw this was in june i think i got rid of my fb too when i saw this. I try telling myself that she is gone for good that i should move on with myself and do me, but i have my days where i cant stop thinking about her. Also the dates ive been on well this girl was into me and really wanted to a relationship with me but i couldnt and i think i did tell her that its me. I wish sometimes i was cold hearted and didnt care at all but i do.

[JB93]

And my heart is winning : (

 

For the past few days Ive been thinking about my ex non stop. Idk y i told myself whats done is done and there is no going back, but still my heart is hoping and the grace of god that she will come back and everything will be the way it was b4. I miss her so much, but I know its not whats best for me, she did me wrong and i dont deserve that, i deserve better. I put so much love into the relationship and towards the end this is wat its got me, no where. Idk guess im just weird. Dont get me wrong, Ive been on dates, go on out with friends, worked out, and kept myself busy but still i feel like something is missing and its cliche but its her, yea i know pathetic. Shes moved on obviously and is with someone the last time i checked her fb, btw this was in june i think i got rid of my fb too when i saw this. I try telling myself that she is gone for good that i should move on with myself and do me, but i have my days where i cant stop thinking about her. Also the dates ive been on well this girl was into me and really wanted to a relationship with me but i couldnt and i think i did tell her that its me. I wish sometimes i was cold hearted and didnt care at all but i do.

 

I am in the SAME EXACT BOAT! ive been on this website for the past week- and its been a struggle. Hearing stories similar to mine does ease the pain a bit, that we are NOT alone. others are suffering the same pain you are. In the end we WILL be stronger. We just dont see that side of it yet

[Rockyb87]

yea i know. im just really tired of all this, with me so worried about her and how she is doing. Sigh i wish it was all back to the way it was, but its not and it wont be. Any who I just needed to let out some air

[LelouchIsZero]

How long have you been in NC/how long has the relationship been over for?

 

It doesn't really seem as if you're ready to date again, so there's no point in putting yourself through it yet.

[Rockyb87]

well its been about a year nxt week to be exact, yes i remember it everything that happened on that day like it was yesterday, since we broken up. N nc was i think feb. But during our break we did talk for awhile and she tried to be friends but i told her i couldnt bc i still loved her and it wouldnt be right to pretend that everything was just dandy. O also during our break we got together and was like all over each other like we used to be, but the next day she was like it was a mistake that she shouldnt have done that.