wilsonx Posted November 3, 2011 Share Posted November 3, 2011 I was told today that he is no longer seeing the woman he pranced around with in front of me (rebound I guess). He is "back to his single self" which I imagine means eating poorly, drinking a lot and sleeping little. I informed the person that told me that I do not care to hear about him anymore. Now he is all I am thinking of. It's strange though. I don't have hope he will call; in fact, I don't want him to. I still feel a strong attraction to him, but just thinking about communicating with him makes me feel very uneasy. He's hurt me so much it makes me feel sick to my stomach. It's as though I love him still, but my mind is overpowering my heart (for once!). I resent him for how horrible he has been, but I feel bad for him too. I want to talk to him and hug him and show him love. I want him to realize so many things (I know this cant be forced). It is the most bizarre mish mash of feelings that I've ever had. If he does call, that'll be very tough for me. I won't answer immediately, I'm certain of that. Anyway, I am not going to do anything at all about it. I will never reach out to him. I'll just work through this. I'll just keep moving forward. Ah hah, see we aren't as different as you think. Just have to keep being strong and moving forward. I see you broke NC =) Its fine, a friend of mine told me about my ex last night completely on accident and I did not stop him. It didn't really hurt, I kind of smiled. The feelings are there still like you. I still care. Just have to get over that hill we are on and its smooth sailing downward Link to post Share on other sites
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