waliz Posted August 28, 2011 Share Posted August 28, 2011 I want off the emotional roller coaster. I'm packing to move out, not my choice. He's gone this weekend. I'm obsessing about what he is doing, who its with, is it "her". I had some good times today, but night times are always the hardest. I feel like there's no anchor to my life, no foundation. Here I am putting everything I own in this whole world into boxes. Getting ready to move into a lonely little apartment. All because he cheated; he changed his mind; he didn't want any stress; he didn't want anyone to be accountable to. It all seems so unfair. I had my phone off most of the day so I wouldn't check it all day. Truth is, I was hoping there would be a text there when I turned it back on. When I didn't get that I immediately went into a tail spin. Is she there? Is someone else there? What is he doing? He's off living it up and I'm putting my s*&t in boxes. Link to post Share on other sites
dreamingoftigers Posted August 28, 2011 Share Posted August 28, 2011 I know that game. Keep the phone off, it will trigger so much pain to keep checking it. Good for you for getting out of there. After a couple weeks of depression, you start to boot yourself up again. After working out and being outside and at work, the fog of obsessive thinking and depression will slowly lift. You haven't lost. You have been given another chance to find something better. Link to post Share on other sites
reimeivn Posted August 28, 2011 Share Posted August 28, 2011 i am feeling really down today. i dont know why. but i can tell you something that hopefully will make you feel better: there are times like this in life but you will just need to live through it. this is the worst that it can get. believe me if anything happens in the future, it will just be the shadow of today. you have done the chapter of your life. now you are off to a new one. i hope you look forward to it. moving out and moving away is the best thing that can happen to you. think about me, after breaking up, i have to see him almost everywhere i go. i have this fear in my heart. i ran away for a little bit but then i had to go back and it was heart-breaking all over again. so be glad, really glad that you are moving out. you will make it. Link to post Share on other sites
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