Scirok Posted August 30, 2011 Share Posted August 30, 2011 So I've wrote here before and got some great advice and everything. But I just seem lost my gf of three years left me I'm not sure if she was cheating or not but not really important (cause I'll never know the truth) but the guy I thought she was cheating on me with she's now unofficially dating ( ya I know makes sence about cheating now) but anywas it just sucks I know her a scumbag and a drug dealer etc but I just find myself in such a dark place I've never had such a hard time dealing with a lost of a lover but it just makes me so mad that she moved on so quick and obviously he blocks out the hurt of not being with me but I have no one I made myself loyal to Her for those three years and didn't talk to any other girls and kept to myself which I ques now F****d myself cause now I have no one of the other sex to date etc it's really hard for me to meet girls and I don't know why I'm not sure if girls don't find me attractive or what it just at the end of the day (and sometimes during the day) I just randomly cry the littlest triggers get me and I lose my mind and miss her I'm not sure why I miss her after what she did but I can't stop crying I feel so pathetic I'm a firefighter and an emt stress and loss has never bothered me I deal with all of this all the time and have taken classes on this. It just as strong as a guy I am I don't know why I'm So sensitive I just wish I could move on but I just feel like I need her in my Life to be whole and I think this pain mostly comes from the fact that I was going to propose to her this coming Xmas (dodged that bullet) so I became so close to her because I obviously wanted to marry her I just wish someone could help or make me stop crying continuously but this is just my Way to vent and any input would be great Link to post Share on other sites
The Great Gazoo Posted August 30, 2011 Share Posted August 30, 2011 Aww man I am so sorry. It’s a crappy place to be. Where you are now, I was 4 months ago after a 9 year relationship and it's the deepest, scariest, darkest place I've been in my life and I'm a mental health professional. Like you, I thought I was strong and stable, but you know what? We are only human and maybe we have higher expectations for the people in our lives because of our own high standards and when they let us down and treat us ****ty, we fall hard and far. Right now you're likely in shock, just like some of the patients you deal with at accident or trauma scenes. It was trauma to your mind/body and it's a seriously painful thing. Just keep living day by day and realize IT WILL get better. I still have bad days but it's pretty good some days too. And most importantly be kind to your self, don't push yourself too hard and don't feel like you have to perfect at everything in your life. Just concentrate on what's important and necessary to keep your life on track. You dodged a bullet, better now than after marriage and kids. Link to post Share on other sites
Eddie Edirol Posted August 30, 2011 Share Posted August 30, 2011 What are you tryin to say Scirok? Link to post Share on other sites
Author Scirok Posted August 30, 2011 Author Share Posted August 30, 2011 To sum it up I'm basically just looking for advice to help Me stop crying constantly I feel like such a little p**** for lack of better words I just can't believe how much this hurts I just want her back in my life but I could never accept her again or trust her I don't know what to do it's been 2 months and I'm only getting worse I'm seeing someone to talk to and on meds but it's not helping it just feels like a bandade Link to post Share on other sites
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