Diatribes Posted August 30, 2011 Share Posted August 30, 2011 3 weeks of NC today. Last week I was feeling somewhat better. I was angry and resentful. It felt good. Last night I got a weird text from someone that said it was a wrong number. Whatever. It prompted me to power up my old cell phone to see if that number matched any. It didn't. I did however find old text messages from my ex, which went right up to the day she moved in with me. She said "I love you" and similar things many, many times. It made me think of how good things were before she moved in with me. It also made me think of how she was the one who's idea it was to progress our relationship to that next level. She was the one that wanted to be exclusive. I did too, but not that fast. It's sad how she was the one who wanted to live with me, then bailed out on me because she didn't like me as a boyfriend and was missing her ex. And to just dump me in every way, not even the "let's be friends" bullsh*t. Why the f*ck would someone do that and play so many f*cking games? It's sad that an adult could profess one's love then change their mind so fast. And to play on one's emotions, knowing very well that person was deeply in love and could be hurt very easily. I gave this girl my all, and she half-assed gave her self to me. 3 weeks, and today I still miss her like I did day one. I'm not going to contact her, and I highly doubt she'll contact me. I don't think I'd be very pleasant if she did. B*tch really hurt me bad. This roller coaster really sucks. I just want to be myself again. It's unfortunate though, as I'm not going to get close like that with another woman, ever. I'm going to play just to benefit myself. So sick of being played myself. Time to turn the tables. Link to post Share on other sites
Dblock10 Posted August 31, 2011 Share Posted August 31, 2011 welcome to the game mate. least you discovered this now. its taken me years over my friend who has known longer than me. i used to think he was bitter. but he is RIGHT. anyway. allow this girl "I gave this girl my all, and she half-assed gave her self to me." what more else can you say? NC says a lot more. actions speak louder than words. and your not even giving words, which is an action. you know you can do better. you gave it her all.. she didnt like it, so f her. move on Link to post Share on other sites
Author Diatribes Posted August 31, 2011 Author Share Posted August 31, 2011 You're right. So many women play games it's sickening. I haven't met one that doesn't. So game f*cking on! I've tried to hold myself above that petty sh*t but it seems like I get played for a fool and get hurt in the end. Nice guys do finish last. I'm done being the "nice guy". I'm never going to find that Norman Rockwell relationship it seems, so it's my turn to shine. Link to post Share on other sites
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