Intense mood swings

[Bito]

Its been 4 months since we broke up and I broke NC about a month ago because of a letter she sent me. Turned out it was all lies just like everything else she said.

 

I find myself still riding on that insane ****ing emotional roller coaster she put me on. This last week I started to cry everyday. I did not do this before...

 

It makes me feel so weak and pathetic that after all this time she is still getting to me.

 

My day could be going just fine and then a random event triggers my memory of her. I can feel that sad heavy feeling engulf me and it just makes me feel sick...

 

I try and coach myself forward but Its exhausting to try and keep myself from feeling awful.

 

This hurt I feel everyday. I am so weary of it...

 

I miss the lie i lived. I was so happy...

[lovesickmonkey]

 

 

I miss the lie i lived. I was so happy...

 

 

That just about says it all, doesn't it?

[Stncldgent]

It's happens bro, I went from depression to complete vile filled anger towards her but then like you there are triggers that put me back to where I was in the beginning, For me it's songs that she said were our songs. They just happen to be popular songs and the ****ing radio plays them constantly.

 

Actually I think the animosity that I have for her is even worse then the depression I had. I absolutely hate her guts because like yours did to you. my ex lied to me about lots of things as well as continued to lie to me about things when I talked to her after she dumped me, that is until I went NC on her.

 

But like I said as soon as one of "our songs" comes on I revert back to feeling horrible. I have to remind myself of the lies she told, to snap out of it. It's a bit better than breaking the radio everytime i hear one of them.

 

Like you said just remember everything she told you was and is one big lie, It will make things easier in the long run.

 

Good luck.

[samoajoe]

Sometimes, all it needs is a change of scenery. You may want to go to a wilderness camp. In a setting with a support group, teens may benefit from a one on one environment which helps prevent them from slipping through the cracks and go through the whole depression process.

[fanc]

All you need is some change. May be you are too stuck up in your drudgery of routine. With such sorts of situations, a little diversion is better before your mind gets really blocked.

 

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[betterdeal]

Chin up, old bean. This is perfectly normal and actually very healthy for you. I know it feels terrible when it does happen, but it's actually delayed shock or, more accurately, delayed processing of pent up feelings.

 

You were depressed, then experienced hate, then deep, deep sorrow. Think of it like layers of an onion: the depression was the outer layer. The hatred, the next layer, and the sorrow the next layer. If you keep on making such good progress you'll have peeled away the sorrow. And what comes after that? Acceptance.

 

Now there will be leftovers of the depression, hatred, fear, sorrow, and they may come at odd times, but you can let go of them by feeling them when they do arise. They will get lesser and smaller and you will feel good again.

 

I started putting aside a quiet moment to myself to process these feelings. Just sitting at home on my own and letting them flow out of me. That might help you if you want to "hold it in" during your normal day and process it when it's more convenient e.g. not when you're in a queue or at work or school!

 

When you're ready to, you can start looking at how you ended up in such a place and look for ways to change so that you don't end up there again and end up somewhere better in the future.

 

Take care.

Edited September 21, 2011 by betterdeal