Karala Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 ...and weirdly enough, it makes me feel good to think that my ex is probably oblivious about it, because he was bad with birthdays like that, and now that we're NC, and I'm off Facebook, and he probably doesn't even know which day it is today because he usually never knows what day it is, the thought that yesterday was is my birthday probably didn't even cross his mind. I guess it makes me feel good that I don't have a boyfriend anymore who's living in his own little spaced out world and who needed to be given instructions about how to behave to be a good boyfriend. I'm single now and have been for 6 months, but hopefully someday I'll find someone who treats me like a queen like I deserve, lol. When it was his birthday, 2 weeks after I'd started NC, I agonized about it being the first birthday he would spend without me, about sending a card or not sending a card, wouldn't he feel too sad about not hearing from me at all, etc. Because I'm a caring person and I feel concerned like that, lol (ok, I probably over-analyse stuff a little and maybe need to feel less concerned, but whatever). He? He probably didn't even have a passing thought about it. Seriously, screw him. I also feel good that I'm not missing him or wishing he would be here, because I know he would be a disappointment as always. The only one time he ever gave me a really great birthday gift is last year, I turned 30 and he raised up money from all of our friends and family to buy me a piano. Cool, huh? Except I never got the money until a month ago, when my parents had to write him an e-mail asking him to please settle the matter. NOT that he intented to scam me (he has lots of money anyway), he just never got around to it, cause like I said, he's in his own little spaced out world (and he also seriously needs to cut down on his pot consumption -_-) I'm still waay too concerned about him, I know. But I'm still happy that I don't feel bad about spending my birthday without him. That's something I wouldn't have bet on a few months ago. Happy birthday to me! ETA: yeah, sorry, I made a new post cause I was so pissed off about the title change. Thanks to Ajax and the others who wished me a happy birthday :] Link to post Share on other sites
1Dunno Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 Well done! I really hope that I'm in your space by the time my birthday comes around in February. I'm also torn as it's my exes birthday in October. I'm so torn between ignoring it completely, sending Hera message or giving her something with a bit of meaning :-( Link to post Share on other sites
Nohbody Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 HAPPY BIRTHDAY LADYBUG! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Karala Posted September 9, 2011 Author Share Posted September 9, 2011 Thanks! And thanks also to those who replied in the other thread, which I don't want to bump so I'm not replying there. Seriously, I don't know what went over the moderators to feel the need to change the name of the thread and make it sound like exactly the opposite of what I was saying. Now there's even this fake profile who posted a stupid reply and obviously didn't even read my post. Mods, why don't you use your time to delete spam and advertisements instead? Christ. Well done! I really hope that I'm in your space by the time my birthday comes around in February. I'm also torn as it's my exes birthday in October. I'm so torn between ignoring it completely, sending Hera message or giving her something with a bit of meaning :-( I'm voting for "ignoring it completely" ^^ Link to post Share on other sites
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