Not wanting the end.

[Lostbird]

Well, the man that I have fallen head-over-heels for has just ended our 5 month relationship. I have secretly liked him for 2 years before we started seeing each other. He was married when I first met him. We became friends but not close. Last year, at this time, I heard he seperated from his wife and was in process of divorce. I kept my thoughts to myself. It was 5.5 months ago that I asked him to go to a party with me, he immediately said yes and we were together ever since.

We have a lot in common and have fun together. The only thing that broke us was a viewpoint that we did not share the same. On 2 seperate occasions I overheard phone calls to people that sounded very serious that made me concerned. I believed they were family members he was speaking to. He knew I was there. When I asked if everything was ok, he responded by saying yes everything is fine. It made me feel strange, but I wouldn't just leave it at that. I started asking him why he wouldn't share what has happened and he would snap back by saying he doesn't want to share it with me that it doesn't involve he and I and to just drop it.

It made me feel as though he didn't want me in that part of his life, even though I have been a huge part of his life for the last 4.5 months. I believe that partners have things they may not share with their partner, but if you do love them you share when there is concern or find a way to say it without sounding as though I am an intruder. The hard part is, I have met his family.

I wasn't being nosey just concerned. Now just a little lost and sad because that is why we are no longer together. He said our viewpoints are not the same right now and maybe that is because of timing, but its not impossible we could get back together. He still cares for me as I do for him. We will try to be friends, but I can't help to feel let down. I love him and I am moving on with my life. I have hope that he may come back after things settle with him, but I'm not counting on it.