Author headsashed Posted September 28, 2011 Author Share Posted September 28, 2011 im still job searching,i actually had an interview last week and i find out on friday if i get it,my fingers are crossed,its for my local council and its an apprentice,the money isnt great but the job sounds good,4 days work and 1 day at college,going to college even for 1 day will be good as ill meet new people. i know nothing is worth taking my life over,thats why i went and got the help i did,now i do feel a little better,tbh ive no idea why i got like i did,maybe because everything happend at once and i felt it it was the only option,my mother went crazy at me,and so she should. and yes,i do regret doing it and ill have scars to remind me everyday of what an idiot i have been. the ex txt again telling me she been in town and its too warm. (ignored) The only way i can go is up now as u said,ive hit the lowest point,and believe me,i dont feel as bad as i did 2 weeks ago even though im still hurting,confused,angry etc. im trying to get my friend to go out tonight for a few drinks and who knows,i might getting chatting to a very lucky lady haha,not that im ready for anything but it will boost my confidence and self esteem again Link to post Share on other sites
Mack05 Posted September 28, 2011 Share Posted September 28, 2011 im still job searching,i actually had an interview last week and i find out on friday if i get it,my fingers are crossed,its for my local council and its an apprentice,the money isnt great but the job sounds good,4 days work and 1 day at college,going to college even for 1 day will be good as ill meet new people. i know nothing is worth taking my life over,thats why i went and got the help i did,now i do feel a little better,tbh ive no idea why i got like i did,maybe because everything happend at once and i felt it it was the only option,my mother went crazy at me,and so she should. and yes,i do regret doing it and ill have scars to remind me everyday of what an idiot i have been. the ex txt again telling me she been in town and its too warm. (ignored) The only way i can go is up now as u said,ive hit the lowest point,and believe me,i dont feel as bad as i did 2 weeks ago even though im still hurting,confused,angry etc. im trying to get my friend to go out tonight for a few drinks and who knows,i might getting chatting to a very lucky lady haha,not that im ready for anything but it will boost my confidence and self esteem again Good to see this kind of progress in such a short period of time mate..Keep it up Link to post Share on other sites
Author headsashed Posted September 28, 2011 Author Share Posted September 28, 2011 when you have got a mother like mine then you have no choice to get better,nag nag nag,but its only because she cares,i will make mistakes from time to time but its how we learn,ive learnt that txting her back only prolongs the inevatable. so i stopped,lesson learnt. next step is getting out there and become the old me,no worries in life. Getting this job will help so much,ill be constantly busy,earning money too which means i can hit the town again and make some lady a very lucky lady haha. Link to post Share on other sites
fetish1980 Posted September 28, 2011 Share Posted September 28, 2011 After awhile you are going to get tired of the same bull****, different day. Nothing of substance. But also realize that you are on a high, feeling some power but as you ignore her, she will soon stop texting you because she knows she can't get to you anymore. And when you see the shift, it will bring you down. It's normal. Because that will be an indication of it's finality. Just keep going. This phase is what i've been going through. It was making me feel a little good as long as my ex was reaching out to me. As soon as she pulled away, it made me start wondering and yes brought me down. It's just apart of the process realizing the finality of it all. geegirl is genious. I know none of you personally know me but ive been quiete ill for along time,im now on tablets for manic depressive episodes because i tried to commit suicide 3 times,what was i thinking,and all along she keeps contacting me knowing full well im going through some very emotional stuff. you have to hold it together. killing yourself is never the answer and is a very cowardly way of going out. Not trying to get religious on you, because not everyone believes in God. But he's really the only one who can heal a broken heart. fetish Link to post Share on other sites
Author headsashed Posted September 28, 2011 Author Share Posted September 28, 2011 i 100% do not believe in any religion,im athiest, but thats just me,ive been as strong as i can the past few weeks and survived by the skin of my teeth,but now things just got 400% worse for me,i cant say why but im tryin to hold it together,i just dont know how anymore,this is nothing to do with my ex even though i got 1 more txt from her which i ignorned. Link to post Share on other sites
fetish1980 Posted September 28, 2011 Share Posted September 28, 2011 i 100% do not believe in any religion,im athiest, but thats just me,ive been as strong as i can the past few weeks and survived by the skin of my teeth,but now things just got 400% worse for me,i cant say why but im tryin to hold it together,i just dont know how anymore,this is nothing to do with my ex even though i got 1 more txt from her which i ignorned. well please ignore that last part of my previous message as it wouldn't apply to you. I apologize. That's why i usually refrain from involving any kind of religion on this board. Either way, heal your broken heart by doing what's good for the mind, body, and soul. Exercising, meditatng, hobbies, volunteering and helping others. All those things will help you feel better about yourself. fetish Link to post Share on other sites
Author headsashed Posted September 28, 2011 Author Share Posted September 28, 2011 i took no offence to your post mate,each to their own. how im holding it together tonight is beyond me,wtf,i just started having an ok day/evening then things happen,i thought things happened in 3's and not 4 or 5's,wow,can anything go right for me,i dread tomorrow when i wake up,be 6's lol Link to post Share on other sites
geegirl Posted September 28, 2011 Share Posted September 28, 2011 i took no offence to your post mate,each to their own. how im holding it together tonight is beyond me,wtf,i just started having an ok day/evening then things happen,i thought things happened in 3's and not 4 or 5's,wow,can anything go right for me,i dread tomorrow when i wake up,be 6's lol At least you still have your sense of humor H! Not all is lost! Sometimes life throws you a few curveballs but in the end, things will always work itself out. I know you feel that everything is coming down on you and when it rains, it sure pours but the bright side is that it has to now get better sooner or later. It won't always be this way. It may come in 6s and 7s but at some point it is going to turn around. Chin up. You're doing great. If you are going through hell, keep walking ~ Winston Churchill. Link to post Share on other sites
Author headsashed Posted September 28, 2011 Author Share Posted September 28, 2011 thanx geegirl,i am going through hell so much,i thought i was on the up until tonight,now it just got so so so much worse,id love to say why but i cant,id literally just turned my phone on and found out some bad stuff,then my ex starts to ring and txt,grrr, my sense of homour will always be there,thats why im a good looking lad i feel like tearing my hair out,sod that though cos im not getting any younger and i need it before i go bald. IF i get through all this then im gonna be in the next rambo movie and take on all asia or something,with just a butter knife and knocking out a few nipple twisters,oh yes Link to post Share on other sites
geegirl Posted September 28, 2011 Share Posted September 28, 2011 (edited) Yep, sometimes you're smooth sailing for awhile and then something bad happens and before you know it, almost everything is falling apart around you. I have had days where I life just seemed pointless to even try anymore but through all this, you build character. Through pain comes growth. You may not see it not but how you deal with this now and how you carry yourself over to the other side will show you what you're really made of when you're over the worse. Vent, scream, post to get out your frustrations. You don't have to tell us what you are going through. Sometimes purging it out and venting can be the release that you need to lighten the burden. Everyone goes through difficulty in life. What does not kill you, will make you stronger. Forget the ex. She is on another planet. Edited September 28, 2011 by geegirl Link to post Share on other sites
Author headsashed Posted September 28, 2011 Author Share Posted September 28, 2011 forget the ex,shes on another planet,that just made me giggle,literally,im going to continue being strong and i know i will get through this and it will make me a better person in the long run,life can chuck what it wants at me,like it already has done but im still here aint i,even though i was stupid a few times,i may feel weak right now but im obviousley stronger than i thought. Link to post Share on other sites
Author headsashed Posted September 29, 2011 Author Share Posted September 29, 2011 i didnt get the job things keep coming and coming but im still here woohoo,on a posotive note my cousin has woken up thank god. 1 text off the ex asking if im ok,i ignored lol Link to post Share on other sites
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