Starnette83 Posted May 10, 2004 Share Posted May 10, 2004 well today was 5th day no contact with my ex but i had to see him at school cuz he had to give me my book...anyways i told him to meet me after class that way he can just give it to me and me go to my next class... well he ended up saying he left in his car..so after my 2nd class we had to walk to his car to get the book...anyways i didnt say anything to him and i was just serious.l...while he tried kinda to tlak to me...he just told me that his mom was in the hospital againa nad he looked bummed about it..he also lookd frustrated..then...he told me that i could copy the extra credit paper that he has left in the book..and i just said ok...basically i would just respond with "that sux", or "ok" i wouldnt initiate any convo..when we got in the car...he told me to get my underwear that i had left it in his car...i was like mm ok..and then he kinda smiled but i remianed serious..then i got my book and said "Thankz" and walked away... i was strong..it was crazy!! its like when i saw him my heart started pounding but when i was with him i had like built in anger that just made me stay strong..and serious..and ****..could it be im getting over him? when i got into my car...i felt tears forming in mye yes..but my eyes just became watery but no tears came out..now im at home and im not really sad..is it that im accepting it?? this is so weird..usually i get all sad and cry and stuff..but not this time...what makes this time different? is it cuz i hit the point where i got sick of it and just so pissed its making me strong? anyways imma copy his paper tonite but im not planning to sit or talk to him tommorow in class..the only reason i talked to him today was just cuz i needed my book back...is it alright to ignore him..or is that to mean? ugh anywayz the reason i broke up was cuz he had been lying to me and trying to hook up with girlz online sayin he was single, then he would deny it to me.. anywayz he got caught and i dumped him...i had given him WAY TOO many chances,and we were 2gether 3 years + 5months..but a year of that whole time i wasnt really happy with him anymore...cuz him taking me for GRANTED Link to post Share on other sites
bluechocolate Posted May 10, 2004 Share Posted May 10, 2004 It does indeed sound like you could be getting over him & congrat's to you for being strong. Don't feel that you have to talk to him, it's not mean if you don't. Remeber he lied to you and cheated on you. Wasn't that mean? Just keep getting on with your own life & don't worry about his feelings. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Starnette83 Posted May 10, 2004 Author Share Posted May 10, 2004 well he didnt cheat on me, but thats basically what his lying was leading to, cuz he was with me yet searching for other girls online and stuff, which is pretty mean...but ya i hope i am getting over him!!! AHHH...thats crazy if i do..cuz at one point he was my everything!! but maybe God is makign me strong and just he hit my point of "IVE HAD ENOUGH" u can check out my diary.(http://www.livejournal.com/users/charmdust83/) .n see mroe of how ive felt..even though i barely began that diary on April, but i had been feeling off..since last year of AUGust, when he really broke my heart.. he dumped me for a whole month,t hen he came back and i was so stuck on him i took him back... Link to post Share on other sites
bluechocolate Posted May 10, 2004 Share Posted May 10, 2004 If he was putting himself out there as a single guy looking, then in my book that is tantamount to cheating. Because even if he didn't actually DO anything, emotionally he was prepared to. And unless he was telling these girls online that he was seeing someone, he was lying not only to you but to them as well! Link to post Share on other sites
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