Thieves Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 You really are. I know more than anyone that it's the easiest thing in the world to look back on the times where you felt weak and spineless to your ex, and yes, it does make you feel quite bad. Hell, 'quite bad' is an understatement. And considering I just broke NC a few days ago, I was upset at first, but I've come to terms with it now. It was a minor mistake - and I should've known better - but that doesn't take away from what I've achieved. It doesn't take away all the strength that I've slowly built up all this time. Strength I'm still building as the weeks go on... But it's only tonight that I've truly looked back on the past year and see how much improvement I've made with myself. Looking back on the past year, and the year before that: I could've never imagined not talking to the guy I was involved with for more than a month, nevermind 8 months!I never would've imagined that I could take him off that tricky 'pedestal', but slowly.. I have.I couldn't bear imagining a future without him in it somehow.Anyone who's ever cared so much for anyone else knows how hard those things can be. And yet here I am, doing all of them. I can now say I know myself so much more than I did before. I know more about what's best for me, even if what's best hurts the most. A year ago, I never would've thought I was able to be this strong and be my own person. But I did it without him, and for that I'm proud of myself. Link to post Share on other sites
D-Lish Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 It's nice when you start turning corners like this. You never see it initially, that one day it's not going to hurt as much as it did at first. Link to post Share on other sites
Karala Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 You really are! Link to post Share on other sites
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