Now I understand...

[Cowboy1015]

I've been wondering how could someone can end their own life. I would think, it should be really painful to that to yourself. Now I understand why. These people are already in so much pain that it seems so much easy to just end it.

 

And yes, ending it comes to my mind. I would think how would it feel to jump from my balcony. I would think that it's probably easier to shoot myself in the head then I'm in peace.

 

But then, I realize... I would hurt a lot of people if I do this. My friends and family. And they are the ones who truly loves me.

 

So I'm not doing it... why am I even thinking of it...!?

[Lil1]

Hey Cowboy,

 

I think that most people if not all contemplate this notion at least once in their life. It is natural to question our mortality and our purpose, particularly during the lowest points of our lives. The fact that you are thinking of others demonstrates that you have a healthy conscience because the people in your life that are left behind are truly the ones who suffer the most when one takes such drastic measures.

 

Please try to consider that you are not alone. Whatever pain and sadness you are experiencing will eventually pass, and there are plenty of people in our world today that are suffering extreme inhumane hardships. Sometimes it helps to put your life into perspective. Would you consider joining some sort of group therapy? Volunteering for a cause or working with animals can also help take your load off.

 

This forum also provides a good outlet and allows you to connect with others who are going through similar situations. It is also important to realize that we are all individuals and what you have to contribute to this life cannot be replicated by another because there is only one you. You are special in your own ways so please don't deprive this world of your inner awesomness! Hang in there Cowboy, the pain will subside in time. Keep reaching out and keep your faith (in yourself) alive!

[gbadboy]

Oh man, this is not good.

 

Those thoughts should not even enter your mind. People will tell you that the minute that happens, you have to seek professional help and clearly that is what you should do..........but often we dont have the motivation.

 

I think you need to surrond yourself with friends/people at all times.

 

If that is absolutely impossible, keep writing posts on here - the good thing with this site is posters are from all over the world, so you're likely to get a response virtually any time of day.

 

Is it necessary to have a job right now? That is, do you have a mortage/rent to pay? Sounds like you need to be under the care of family/friends for a month or so. You dont seem to have the willpower to even hold a job provided you get it.

 

I will admit that ONCE ONCE entered my mind but it lasted for half a second and I quickly quickly quickly erased it. I think when we are at our deepest despair that crosses our mind.

 

IF you absolutely can't be around people, then spend your time on this site and read other people's issues - it will help you and make the time go by. It's what helps me sometimes.

[Cowboy1015]

Thanks for the replies.

But let me tell you guys, I'm not gonna do something crazy to myself. I maybe feeling really sad at the moment... it's just the heart that's broken... my mind is not.