You can't get any lower than this.

[Janik]

Although I'm the complete opposite, I'm fully aware of how you feel towards everyone in your life. You've told me multiple times that you don't care about hurting anyone, that you'd rather keep yourself happy with no regards about anyone else. When we broke up I even asked you if I fell into that category and you told me "Why wouldn't you?". That hurt a lot, but you either said it because it was easier than being nice, or because you actually meant it.

 

Last night you came to my work place with my "friend." You both looked at me in the eyes, pretended you didn't see me, and stayed exactly where you were with no remorse what so ever. What kind of person do you have to be to actually do something like that? It brings not caring to a completely new level.

 

I've no idea if it was your idea or hers, but both of you are incredible. You know I work there and even if you didn't think I was working, you have the courtesy not to go there. You've both shown me your true colors and to be honest I don't want anything to do with either of you.

 

You: You've shown me how little you really care and made me realize how much credit I've given you over the last two years when I really shouldn't have. You can be an amazing guy, one of the best I know, but only if it suits you.

 

Her: For the last two months I've been trying and trying to help you get out of your abusive relationship and give you help to get better and all you've done is pushed me away and talked to me when it was convenient. Ironically enough, two weeks ago you told me you didn't talk nor hang out with my ex, you only ran into him once. You're a liar. I even told you I didn't want you to lie about anything like that. I also found out that you manipulated my friend and caused your ex to stop talking to her. I remembered last night that you've gone on this website to see what your ex was writing, and I wonder if you've read these posts yet or even shared them with my ex. It wouldn't surprise me. I tried so hard to be there for you and you've pretty much turned around and slapped me in the face. So go ahead, **** my ex boyfriend, become his rebound, but know that it's all you are to him. Until he grows up, he'll never be able to deal with a serious relationship and neither will you.

 

I write on here because it helps. It seems almost silly to be opening up my thoughts to gosh knows how many people, but it's better than telling my ex all of these things. Unlike both of you I can actually deal with my current broken heart in the right way, by seeing old friends, starting up horseback riding again (my passion), working really hard in school, and actually making myself a better person. I don't need to fill in the void with another person nor go out of my way to ruin/create drama in other people's lives. If you end up together, you really do deserve each other, but I know you'll never learn.

 

If you read this then enjoy, but this was never for you to read, least of all pass it on to him. So we'll see what kind of people you both are.

[january2011]

I'm so sorry that you're going through this, Janik. Please vent away. This is your space.

[Bruised Not Broken]

I'm sorry you are going through this....if they treat you so badly, they will treat each other exactly the same at some point. People don't usually change that much....be glad you learned what they are truly like and find people that are more worthy of your love and friendship.

[Janik]

Thanks guys, it's so nice to have people that understand. It's just so hard to see nearly three years of friendship with him go down the drain because he feels the need to prove to me how little he cares.