markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 this is an email my wife sent to a freind this morning........................................... It was nice to hear from you and glad to hear you and Michael are doing well! I know you have been a good friend to Marc all these years and am glad he has you now to lean on in his hour of need. Since you are Marc's friend I do not feel like I should go into the years it has taken me to come to this decision. I have been very unhappy for a very long time and through a series of events over the past 10 years have become very depressed and now realize that I have not loved Bill/Marc in a few years. Yes, we have been through EVERYTHING (more than a couple of times). I guess that is why when the last straw gets pulled out, you just have nothing left to give. You only know a small amount of the things we have been through and out of respect for your friendship with Bill, I will not dredge up the past, but I just cannot live with him anymore. I am so much happier now, more so than I have ever been. I have not laughed and had so much freedom to say what I want and do what I want since I was a teenager! I am finally enjoying my life and not trying to live around Bill's. The worst part of this whole thing is that I have cried everyday for the past 10 years and finally have no more tears to cry. Unfortunately, and this I regret the most, Bill is hurting and I do hate to see him hurting so badly! I know he loved me in the best way he possibly could, but I need more and a different kind of love than what he can give me. He will NEVER change into the kind of person I need to be with. I want to find my one true love and Bill is not it. I cannot stand the thought of living with him another 5 minutes, let alone another 20 years. I am wanting a new life and know beyond any doubt in my mind I will never regret this decision. I only regret Bill/Marc does not see our marriage as a prison that has kept us both miserable for years. It's just too late to save this marriage and I really DO NOT WANT TOO! I pray he will get on with his life and find someone new and be happy the rest of his life. Though I am very bitter and can only remember all the bad stuff now, I really do not wish him any illwill. Actually, I want him to be happy. I pray he will find a job he really loves and be happy forever. He deserves to be happy, and so do I, just not together! We have been through too many bad things to ever forget them and live with them and love him again. If you are really his friend you will encourage him to move on, hate me if he must, get on with his life, be happy and stop remembering good times and remember all the things he hated about me, all the fights, all the bad times! Please be his friend and help him get on and find someone else! This may be the last time we speak, but I wish you all the best in life. is there any hope in this at all? Link to post Share on other sites
sportsloving Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 I am afraid to say it but, No. She has clearly stated that she is sorry for your pain and anguish over the circumstances, but she in her heart believes that you two are going to be much happier apart. She has given you the clearest of reasons and has told you (indirectly) what has happened in the past is too much for her to be able to cope with. Read her letter again. She is happy, and she wishes you to be happy. She is not going to change her mind and decide her happiness is tied with you. She is very honest and upfront with her feelings, please take that in regard. And I hope over time you come to understand what she is saying. I wish you the very best this life has to offer. Good luck to you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Author Share Posted May 12, 2004 BUT CONSIDER THIS--I THINK, I SAID I THINK, SHE MAY HAVE GATHERED THE ORIGINAL LETTER WAS FROM ME TO BEGIN WITH....COULD SHE THINK THAT AND BE TRYING TO TELL ME IN A ROUNDABOUT WAY WHAT IS WRONG, IF SHE THINKS ITS FROM ME-ALTHOUGH UNDER ANOTHERS NAME (BY THE WAY-IT IS) Link to post Share on other sites
sportsloving Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 Originally posted by markiemarcc BUT CONSIDER THIS--I THINK, I SAID I THINK, SHE MAY HAVE GATHERED THE ORIGINAL LETTER WAS FROM ME TO BEGIN WITH....COULD SHE THINK THAT AND BE TRYING TO TELL ME IN A ROUNDABOUT WAY WHAT IS WRONG, IF SHE THINKS ITS FROM ME-ALTHOUGH UNDER ANOTHERS NAME (BY THE WAY-IT IS) Huh? She wrote your friend who is really you? Link to post Share on other sites
Author markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Author Share Posted May 12, 2004 YEP Link to post Share on other sites
Beth Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 I'm confused. Email as posted above: From: your wife To: your friend (What is your friend's name?) your friend is you? Are you Bill or Marc? What is the 'original letter' you mentioned in your reply? SHE MAY HAVE GATHERED THE ORIGINAL LETTER WAS FROM ME TO BEGIN WITH. (ps: I understand that you are hurting and angry, but please try to refrain from typing in all caps -- it comes across as shouting and is more difficult to read. ~Thank you) If your friend is you, then your wife has never met your friend or talked to him because he is imaginery, yet she is sending this friend an email? Or did you write a letter to yourself, claiming it was from a friend that she knows, and she is responding to the letter? I want to understand - but I need some clarification. Link to post Share on other sites
Author markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Author Share Posted May 12, 2004 OK--YES I AM BILL AND MARC--GO BY 2 NAMES. AND YES--I SENT THE LETTER TO HER FROM A PHONY EMAIL ADDY. SHE MAY THINK ITS THAT FARAWAY FREIND (OF MINE) WHO SHE RARELY TALKED TO--OR MAY THINK ITS FROM ME, THAT I FINIGGLED IT THAT WAY...I DUNNO Link to post Share on other sites
bluechocolate Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 This is too strange. I've posted before that I thought you were playing silly games with your wife & your daughter and this is just a game too far. I have no idea what to say. Link to post Share on other sites
johan Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 Are you thinking didn’t actually mean that stuff that she wrote? Why do you think she would do that? I don’t mean to challenge you, I just want to know what you think she’s thinking. Link to post Share on other sites
Author markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Author Share Posted May 12, 2004 i dunno--im thinking she thot it was me and is trying to get a message across that things have to change---scaring me to death as it were Link to post Share on other sites
Author markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Author Share Posted May 12, 2004 basically the woman is saying no reconciliation--not now--not in a year--not in 10--and the divorce isnt even final yet. shes making no signs whatsoever that we might be able to work it out--sooner or later. Link to post Share on other sites
genie Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 I've read all of your posts. You have one stating that you started an affair in Sept, moved the girl in. Her ex boyfriend committed suicide and then the girlfriend left you. Am I totally wrong here, but has your wife had to deal with you and another woman? Please explain the posts. Link to post Share on other sites
Author markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Author Share Posted May 12, 2004 nono heavens no all i did was move her into my store--she had no where to go the wife thot it was an aff. Link to post Share on other sites
sportsloving Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 this is a soap Post: 1 | Quote: figure this one out--began having an affair in september--she was crazy for me--we both had a great time--she left a guy shed lived with for 13 yrs who was a biker (u know the rest)--she went to work for me--i housed her, fed her. entertained her etc...--we were inseparable---i'll make this short---2 months ago we got a call--he had comiited suicide--there are varying reasons why (her?)- she seemed to take it as ok as humanly possible--meanwhile divorce papers are filed on me--and as human nature has it i complained about support et all, during this time--a week after the suicide she moves in with her mother--whom by the way threw her out 3 months ago cause she was invading her privacy--and since that time i havent heard anything except for an email whereby i am the biggest ass that ever lived. The night i had to tell her of the suicide i drove her to her moms and i had a beer. I asked if it was ok--she said yeah--now im a drunk--i only care about myself etc--and i lose a marriage out of it. This woman wrote me i love you cards, wanted me forever and all that. Now i feel like i'll never see her again--ive written 1000 emails--called, no answer, called her home and had her mother scream at me at the top of her lungs. All i wanted to know was how she was and i was told it was none of my business (i didnt even know if she was alive). Can anyone shed light on what u think This is why your wife thought it was an affair? Because it was? And you wanted her back and even stated.... YOU lose a marriage out of it. What is really going on? Link to post Share on other sites
Author markiemarcc Posted May 12, 2004 Author Share Posted May 12, 2004 omg--i just read my post i meant to say began what my WIFE thot was an affair that screws it all off doesnt it Link to post Share on other sites
floydgondoli Posted May 12, 2004 Share Posted May 12, 2004 Are you in any way, shape, or form serious? If so, I suggest you take a good look in the mirror and ask yourself if you like what you see...Then take a step back and ask yourself how this looks to the rest of us...Remove yourself from all you have written and read it from a different perspective...THEN ASK YOURSELF IF ANY OF THE METHODS YOU ARE CURRENTLY USING ARE LEADING YOU TO THE THING YOU WANT MOST IN LIFE - A TRUE, UNABATED LOVE THAT WILL LAST If any of this is true, take a step back and gather yourself - realize that no one (including yourself) should have to resort to these tactics You obviously have a caring heart (as you have posted your feelings here)...If you take care of yourself and nurture that first, I imagine that it will show through to anyone who cares to see it... Link to post Share on other sites
sportsloving Posted May 13, 2004 Share Posted May 13, 2004 I can't even begin to understand what you want us as a forum to do. You wrote your ex-wife an email, under a made up email address posing as your friend, and she writes you (your friend) back stating clearly and repeatedly that she wants nothing to do with you. You stated on another thread that you started an affair in Sept, wife was fine in Oct, March you are being served divorce papers yet you are upset because the girlfriend's ex-boyfriend committed suicide and she left you high and dry. You can't even keep your names straight, it is either Marc/Bill. I guess my question is only this... are there any children involved and have you considered what your actions may be teaching them? I don't think your wife is telling you the things that went wrong to help you fix them, she wants you out of her life. You may want to consider counseling for maybe the manipulation, lying, cheating, and whatever else you is necessary in order to love. Try with the truth and work from there. Best of luck Link to post Share on other sites
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