Does ex girlfriend ever want to try again with me?

[blastoise]

Hi there, my girlfriend of four months recently broke up with me about a month ago. We had our fair share of fights and disagreements during the relationship and I felt that we were making progress....though also we didn't see eye to eye on a few things. She can be very stubborn and wanting things her way, so I tried to make her understand but never seemed to work out. I always wanted to come to a mutual decision but that never turned out either.

 

Anyways, we went back to being good friends and I had no contact with her for a while. When we caught up, she kept holding my hand, putting her arm around my waist etc. This happened a few other times, until the last time we caught up, which was seeing a movie together, in which I tried to hold her back and she just brushed me off, acted hot and cold. Then got angry when I stayed silent later on, because I felt my feelings coming up again and I was confused.

 

That night I texted her asking if she wanted anything more and to please not touch me, and she said that she had touched me because she felt that was the way things were between us before our relationship happened. I said it was kind of disrespectful because should be wary of my feelings. She said she thought it was comfort and because we were close, and I told her that was because I was developing feelings for her back then, not because we were close. She also said in her text messages that I had come a long way, and wished that it was sooner and there were less arguments, but she guessed it was in the past. And that she was lucky to have shared that part of our life together, and that she wished she could feel as strong and sure as I did about her and I, but that time can change things.

 

I asked her if she would ever want to try again in six months or a year's time, if we aligned and worked at it slowly. She said "not in the near future at the moment". Does that mean that she doesn't want to try again with me ever? Or is she waiting for me to be better in my own life and she's assessing that, then if she likes it she will try again?

 

I still have feelings for her, and even if I moved on, we were always like family together and best friends, and I kind of want to try again and hope that we can and that it does work out. Her friends say that she is not ready for any relationship for quite a long time.