My most painfull experience.....

[Claire983]

Hello everyone...i just need somebody to talk about my most painfull experience ever...i met this guy last year in foreign country where we both worked...since i saw him i felt for him..so as him...the main problem was that i had only one week to go home..so we end up being intimate..we became friends on facebook...and i went home thinking i will never gonna see him again...

One year later call it destiny or not in May we got same job again in foreign country..i couldn't bealive it..so i send him msg on facebook telling him the news...i was so exited that finnnaly i will have chance to know him much better....his reaction was kind of like great but i told him that we gonna be friends with benefits as i knew it that he is a player...so as me..i mean i'm like party girl i don't want nothing serious with anybody...

Here it goes my big drama...in may this year we both end up together on

the same work place he was my supervisor..we were both wery exited to be

again together and this time for 3 months period..

The first week was evrything perfect he was always with me calling me for

lunch gym and he was the one calling me all time..than ofter one week the

guy realised that we were too close and everybody think that we are couple

so that means he can't be with another girl...so i back off and said fine i

will ignore you....

Since than just everything was wrong...my roomate i think she was kind of

jealous on me so she start to do anything to make me problems with

him....anyway it was a lot of going on...in those 3 months together we were

friends with benefits...but it was a lot of problems...i never ever made him

any problem regardind on him seeing another girl...but he was giving me a

lot of pressure at work...everything i've done it was mistake to him..all

other collegues knew it that he is overreacting with me...if i made one mistake it is big problem for him...he was always blaming me how i think

only on partyies..how i'm spoiled and selfish and i think only on

me...everyday he was pointing on my mistakes even if they were silly...

Due to the stress i lost a lot of weight..i mean i was always attractive girl

tall and skinny..blond hair....so i starded to realize that i 'm lossing alot of

weight i mean i'm not overweight girl so i can say great i lost weight i used

to be model...so i decided to go and see the doctor about me going home

earlier..the doctor thaugt that i got anorexia due to stress..so i i was

supposed to leave the work place in 48 hours..for me was shock....

Anyway i'm calling the guy as he is my supervisor to tell him that

somethnig is wrong with my health and i have to go home in 2 days...he

was shock as well...so the night before i'm going home he was all night

with me we were talking a lot..i appoligised to him about anything that was

happening...so as him he said he is sorry about giving me pressure at work

and he was kind of blaming himself...i was crying alot i told him no i'm not

blaming you..yes you did gave me a lot stress but was my choice that i

refused to eat....we were hugging each other we said sorry about anything

we stay up till 6 in the morning i finnaly was talking with him as real

friends..

Wewent to sleep..so i wake up the next morning only to see he deleted

me from facebook i was shocked...so i went in his office and ask him why

he deleted me....all what he said was i don't wanna any reminder that i

ever met you...i was like what was i so bad memory...he just said to me

**** off...i start to cry and i said to him does it really have to end like

this...he was ignoring me all day refuses to see me in my eyes...i mean i

was with him all night hugging each other and than boom he don't want

even to talk to me...so i started to pack crying all day...the night has come

i was thinking at least he is gonna tell me goodbye if i dont desrve any

explanition..but no not even goodbye...he was standing there seeing me

cryinng and not say even one word to me...i didn't wanna pushing him to

talk to me....

I left home crying..and knowing that i'll never gonna see

him again...i send him one msg on facebook to tell him how i fell...that

happened what happened we can't change it..but we did had a good time

as well....he never reply to me..after 3 weeks i try one more msg on

facebook again no response...just to mind you that facebook is my only

contact....so about 3 weeks ago i send him another msg asking what i have

done to him...just i asked him very politely if he is gonna ever talk to me

again..i know that i'm not so bad person i never yelled at him i never even

insulted him...if anyone has right to be mad is me but still i'm not that

pesrson to hate somebody..and he answer me back....saying i dont wanna

****ing talk to you and leave me the hell alone and he block me on

facebook..i was shocked i sent him total 3 msg in period of 2 months which

the first 2 he didn't replyed back..so he make me like i'm some stalker

where i really think that i deserve some sort of explanition why he choose

to end the things like this...it's not that we gonna bump each other

somewhere we live in different continents....

So he just pressed one button and he erase me like i never existed...after

all we went trough...now it is just like we never met each other....i know

his email adress...but after he block me from facebook i will never ever

gonna contact him....he choose to be jerk at the end i tryed to be at least

civil....but i really don't know what is going on in his head....and i realised

that maybe was the best for me not even know ever...

Edited October 3, 2011 by Claire983