Starting to feel down again

[Moetato]

I've been noticing within the past few weeks, my depression has been creeping back up. At the end of 2010, I sought and received proper medical help and counseling, which ended up boosting my morale for most of this year. My depression has been something that has been living with me for awhile, but my father's death a year and a half ago and finding out that I'd been cheated on by a then bf put me over the edge.

 

About two months ago, I quit my job due to being bullied by my boss. She was the only other person I worked with at that particular job. I'd held the job for about a month and a half, and it was the first job I ever quit without notice. My boss swore at me, yelled, and told me I "had a problem with common sense." The same week, my boyfriend and I broke up due to him starting med school. I didn't want to leave the relationship, but he wanted to focus on school and still stay friends, even though I told him I couldn't just flip a switch to become platonic. (Luckily, he doesn't contact me much because he's so overwhelmed and depressed about failing some tests)

 

I knew that I couldn't sit at home idle, so I picked up a volunteer position at a local hospital the week after everything happened. I volunteer twice a week helping the registration department coordinate arrivals, and walk around with a book cart, visiting patients. I go to the gym 2-3 times a week, see friends occasionally (about 1-2 times a week), and I've been applying to jobs as well, even though I am having no luck. For awhile, things had been sustainable morale-wise, but I am starting to feel crappier and crappier again. I am pretty sure the change in season is contributing to this, but I don't know what else I can do to try to keep my spirits up. I know I am still trying to cope with the breakup, and am frustrated about what to do about life, but not sure what else I can do.

 

Thoughts?

[brokendreamz]

Hey, sorry to hear you're feeling bad.

 

Have you considered meditation... Really helps me. Check out a mindfulness meditation course near you.

 

Good luck

[Lobouspo]

Losing a loved one, going through a breakup and losing a job in a relatively short period of time is a lot of trauma for anyone to bear. Do you still have some sort of health insurance where you can afford therapy? Also there should be support groups in your area dealing which could be helpful in dealing with the loss of your father. Were you ever prescribed any meds for your depression? You are on the right track volunteering and going to the gym. I would suggest to lean on family friends for support, and set little attainable goals for yourself everyday/week/month. We never know in life what the peaks are in life until we've been through the valleys. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Lobouspo]

Sorry for the slightly garbled syntax, I obviously did not proofread:(

[whichwayisup]

You're doing the best you can, and I think you're handling this great! You are pushing yourself to go and do, and not laying in bed or letting the D monster get you down. You're fighting hard, keeping busy and living life.

 

What you can do is, yoga. Every single day do at least 20 minutes to half an hour. This will help de-stress you and mentally as well as physically make you feel better. Take vitamin D, triple your dose! One can't have enough vitamin D. this time of year IS depressing! The weather is changing, it's colder and getting darker earlier. I suffer from S.A.D so recently I've been feeling quite blah too.

 

Talk to your friends, write in a journal, write your ex letters (theraputic only, never send them to him).. You've been through a lot and are still grieving losses. I'm sorry about your dad.. It sucks, been there.. I lost mine too.