She's the one. Big (lesbian) ISSUE!

[tarotaro]

I met this girl two weeks ago... and when i did, it was like the world stopped freaking spinning. I get this LURCH every time i see her... I get this achey feeling whether i see her or not.

 

I'm a girl too... just so you know... I'm gay. But yeah, i'm really, really shy and nervous- but i swear, when i met her, i knew i couldn't just let her pass me by just cause i'm a nervous, sweaty, awkward freak, right? So i forced myself to walk for steadily, breathe more often, and talk to her. Obviously i haven't been the SMOOTHEST person in the world... but at least i'm trying reaallllllyyy hard. I sit with her at lunch when i can... I try to say hi in the halls, I manage to strike up a conversation once or twice.... I smile at her a LOT. Most recently, i painstakingly asked her if i could draw her (I'm an art student), and she agreed.

 

She says she's 90% gay. But last week, she started to date this guy. And I don't really know what to think... half of me says that she can't really be that into him if she's pretty much gay. I think that if i reveal my feelings, maybe she won't feel like she wants to be with him... The other half of me wonders if she could actually be into him.

 

It's been only two weeks of knowing her, and i only see her about every 2-3 days, and pretty briefly. I really do look at her and feel like i'm looking at The One. What on earth should i do? Reveal my feelings? Wait? What do you think of this guy she's with? PLEASE TELL ME MY NEXT MOVE? Ask her out? Flirt better/more? Grow more balls?

 

Just for some background info: I am 17 and this is a high school situation.

 

Thank you for reading, hope you'll help this miserable sop. Any words of advice gravely appreciated.

[january2011]

She's with someone else. Let your crush die a natural death. Otherwise, if you still feel the same when she's single and recovered from the breakup, ask her out.