TinaniT Posted October 28, 2011 Share Posted October 28, 2011 (edited) I have been away a bit because I was beating myself up about the past too much to be healthy. I have segmented that as something I have to accept, but will never feel good about, and considered what lead me to that point. My husband and I are still doing well. Unfortunately, I'm seeing him less than I used to after a promotion at work has him all over the world, but the time together is still wonderful and he supports me. I am of course depressed as the holidays approach and I think of Christmas break without my son. There's no way in divorce around it. I don't know if it will ever cease being difficult, but it kills me to even think about. It will be hard when it comes. The lack of more kids (problems there) has also not been easy on me. I have started working! Kind of. I am doing at home childcare for several children. It allows me to be a home with my son but have my own thing. We don't need the money, but considering my past and how my decisions were informed/controlled, it is for the best. How is everyone here doing? Edited October 28, 2011 by TinaniT Link to post Share on other sites
Gentlegirl Posted October 28, 2011 Share Posted October 28, 2011 I have been away a bit because I was beating myself up about the past too much to be healthy. I have segmented that as something I have to accept, but will never feel good about, and considered what lead me to that point. My husband and I are still doing well. Unfortunately, I'm seeing him less than I used to after a promotion at work has him all over the world, but the time together is still wonderful and he supports me. I am of course depressed as the holidays approach and I think of Christmas break without my son. There's no way in divorce around it. I don't know if it will ever cease being difficult, but it kills me to even think about. It will be hard when it comes. The lack of more kids (problems there) has also not been easy on me. I have started working! Kind of. I am doing at home childcare for several children. It allows me to be a home with my son but have my own thing. We don't need the money, but considering my past and how my decisions were informed/controlled, it is for the best. How is everyone here doing? It's doesn't get any easier when your child is not with you for a special occasion. Mine is 43 and when she goes to her father and I am alone for Christmas, it's still awful. My husband passed away almost 3 years ago so I have been alone for 2 Christmases... not fun. GG Link to post Share on other sites
Author TinaniT Posted October 28, 2011 Author Share Posted October 28, 2011 It's doesn't get any easier when your child is not with you for a special occasion. Mine is 43 and when she goes to her father and I am alone for Christmas, it's still awful. My husband passed away almost 3 years ago so I have been alone for 2 Christmases... not fun. GG I don't expect it will. Sorry, GG. There is a reason why divorce is so hard, even when unhappy in a relationship. I'm still sometimes surprised I left, even with the abuse. Hope you meet someone who treats you right soon so you aren't alone! Not the same as your own flesh and blood, I know. Where is everyone I used to know? wow. I remember you, of course, GG. Lots of new names. Link to post Share on other sites
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