ljh2011 Posted October 30, 2011 Share Posted October 30, 2011 Its long sorry...... Me and my ex broke up some time ago, i've been very down and depressed since but have done nothing but mess my self up. I had a group of friends who were pretty good to me after, one was a massive cause of alot of anxiety but he was nearly always there when i needed him. I was out with an old friend for a birthday and later in the night after alot of drinks i saw my group of friends, with all my ex's friends, which is none of my business but i felt almost cheated so i left. It was soo wrong but in my drunken haze i sent one a horrible text, i appologised straight after but the damage had been done, I'ts all my fault but i'm too embarrased and ashamed to do anything about it. I havn't seen any since. I have a best friend who has been there and put up with alot from me, he is 6 months into a relationship with a lovely girl and spends most his time with her so when i see him its always fairly short and we never leave the house. When i was 6 months in to my last relationship he was going through the same thing and he came everywhere with us, but people are different. I started to feel like he was stitching me up sometimes, saying we would do things and them not happening and not texting me back, but i would've never said anything it's not my place. But my mum had a big party last night which me and him were talking about for ages and i was looking foward to just having a laugh with him, untill an hour before he said he's not drinking and not staying long so i snapped and told him not to bother coming. Wrong i know. He came, it was hard but we got on ok, but i always rant at him about how i can't be bothered and all this ****, I know what i do but i can't stop doing it it's horrible, i feel i got alot better but i've messed myself up again. I don't know why i'm doing these things to myself but it's eating me up inside. What can i do? Sorry and thank you. Link to post Share on other sites
january2011 Posted October 30, 2011 Share Posted October 30, 2011 It sounds like your emotions are all over the place. If this has been going on for quite some time and socialising is not helping to lift your mood, I'd suggest a consultation with your primary healthcare physician to see if you need to speak to therapist. Link to post Share on other sites
Author ljh2011 Posted October 30, 2011 Author Share Posted October 30, 2011 Thank you for your reply. I have been to see a few people, the doctor has put me on citralopram and im on the waiting list to see a phsycologist. My emotions are deffiantly all over the place. Link to post Share on other sites
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