sunflower11 Posted October 31, 2011 Share Posted October 31, 2011 It had been 2 weeks of NC for me...and 3 weeks ago we spoke on the phone and he said he loved me and was sorry for everythin and he would "text me next week" (my ex has depression plus we are long distance in diff countries..so thats why he broke up with me..saying he wasnt himself and needed time off to get on meds or figure things out). 3 weeks passed and he never textd me so with the news of the snowstorm upnorth i called him sat night and he didnt answer...i called 2 more times and nothing. then i sent him a really angry text which i later regretted cause ive never been a bitchy person and we never argued or had a fight or anything.....so i wrote him a rather long email explaining how i felt and saying i loved him and wanted him to get better and feel happy again. i did text hm yesterday morning saying i had emailed him and to please read and saying also i was sorry it my text was harsh sat night. I dont think i am expecting a reply since hes been ignoring me for over a month after he broke up with me ive been the one calling texting and begging him to take me back which makes me feel really crappy but i needed to get things off my chest cause ive been nice and sweet and comforting and saying its ok i understand dont worry about hurting me its fine i forgive you..when..its really not. ive been hurting like hell so i wanted to tell him it wasnt ok..i wanted him to know how much ive been hurting..i thought if i went NC then he would miss me and he would be the one to get in touch with me. this morning i feel like ****...the moment i woke up a wave of pain washed over me. i recently finished a temp job i had so now on to looking for another job which means i need distractions in my lie or i will fall off the horse again and try calling him...sighh his birthday is next week but i dont think he will answer my calls so idk what to do Link to post Share on other sites
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