perfectlyflawed459 Posted November 5, 2011 Share Posted November 5, 2011 As much as I love the holidays, I can't help but feel an empty feeling in my heart today. Just so many memories have been rushing back because I spent Thanksgiving with his whole family last year and cooked food together. I hate how I miss him so much and yet I have probably not crossed his mind at all. Another thing that happened was that my mom told me she ran into his mom at the store earlier today and his mom told her that she thinks I am a beautiful, smart, and amazing girl and then she went on about how stupid and immature her son is. She says he will never find a girl as special as I am and that she believes that her son will grow up and realize his mistake. That broke my heart, his mom is so sweet. If her, his family, and everyone else can see how dumb he was in leaving me then why did he cast me aside so quickly? Yea it has been 5 weeks of NC, but gosh it feels like an eternity! I just wish he would snap to his senses, if he ever does that is. I know nothing is guarenteed but I do have a little hope for us in the future, as pathetic as that is. Oh well, I have to keep pushing forward, stay strong, and remain positive. I have been doing so well, but I still have my blue moments. Does anyone else have the Holiday Blues? Link to post Share on other sites
theratandthecat Posted November 5, 2011 Share Posted November 5, 2011 I do, but for different reasons. I told her I'd come visit her during Christmas and she told me that her mom said I could stay at her house. Guess it's not happening. I'm afraid of holidays because I think I'll be lonely. I dread weekends and long break, and don't know what to do. Link to post Share on other sites
sunflower11 Posted November 5, 2011 Share Posted November 5, 2011 YES. I was supposed to go visit him for Christmas and see snow for the first time and we were going to cuddle in his bed and watch movies and ...ahhh yeap. that's not happening anymore Link to post Share on other sites
AlisaMarie Posted November 5, 2011 Share Posted November 5, 2011 I have the blues because every holiday for the past 2 years has been ruined by my ex. He was either cheating on me, lying to me, or trying to eff with my head. Last thanksgiving he cried that he had to spend it alone and eat mac and cheese with his son. I later found out he spent it with his other girlfriend. Last christmas he came back to me with gifts and a confession of love. I only found out he lied so much about the other girl and the gifts he gave were suppose to go to her. I am disgusted that I let a vile creature rape my soul as he did and ruin any ounce of joy that was left in me. To think we just broke up not even two weeks ago for the 6th time and he is back the same girl that he left me two other times for. I am sorry... I had to vent. Link to post Share on other sites
itsmewren Posted November 5, 2011 Share Posted November 5, 2011 the holidays make you painfully aware that you're alone and ten times more aware that not only are you no longer the one he wants, but he's now happy and in love with someone else. and thinking about the things they're probably doing together/what he's saying to her.. yeah it blows Link to post Share on other sites
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